So he did asked me whether I want another pair, ikotkan hati aku nak ajek!! Sial btol! Hahaha. Yusman did insisted me in buying Air Max gold plate but there's no size! Aku punyer sort!! So off to cineleisure and bought Nazry a medium size cookie in heart shape from Mrs. Field. And I know he loves the cookie I bought for him the last time, haha. So I went off alone to meet Izzat, Hadi and the rest at Lucky Plaza and bus ride to Esplanade. And met their friends up and fireworks. And off to Merlion and met up with Deedee, Azmi and their friends. To Marina and met up with An, Mira and their friends. And Izzat and he's friends went off. And bus ride to Fernvale and met up with the boys. And at that point of time Nazry was really really furious with me! So I took my time. Later in the morning we didn't had such a god talk. I ending up shouting at him and him shouting at me. So I'm sorry. Our friends keep saying it was a misunderstanding. So I totally agreed. And he did said he's sorry for being too harsh on me yesterday and him misunderstanding all this shit. So we're on good terms now, I love you much:) So slack at Fernvale till morning and bus rid home. And slept at nine and woke up around twelve with Nazry & Wwan calling me up! Irritating tao! My precious twenty five minutes was gone. So I slept for three hours only, till now I didn't slept a wink yet. So got myself ready and the boys and Leha kept texting me up where am I, woke up already and much much more! -__- Aku tahu lah nak bangun kul braper nak siap kul braper ni sumer! Yes, just I thought I was the last to reach but somehow I was the first to reach sumer lambat, pasal tu Iyllia! Lembab! Heh! So off to Hougang and to jemputan. And the song that I sang with Nazrul was okay ah! And ni Mamat kan pemalas sak nak bawak dier peh makanan! Hehehe!! And bus ride home! And I had dinner with mummy! Baby, I didn't mean to shout at you on the phone! Really! Heh!

N: Baby, im sori 4 being harsh 2 u juz now n i sala phm....im over reacting coz i tkot ilang u... Im so so sori k syg.... Love u much! *the cute sony ericsson muackz animation, haha*

Okay, so tomorrow will be Monday. I'm not sure I don't think I will be heading to school tomorrow cause it's Monday! It's Monday blues, Monday sucks alot, Monday ends really really LATE!!! Hahahahaha!

will update more.
pictures of the ceremony will be up soon, loves:)

To Iyllia Nazry,

I'm terribly sorry for what happen, I really am. I don't even know how to cheer you up. Sweetheart, you should know that I don't mean it at all, right? But well if you think the other way round then that's why you can't accept it. So, I'm really really sorry.
:'(

I've not been updating my blog.. so start off with, School. School today was fun. With the boys and girls. And Saiful memang memalukan aku sekali! And form and co form didn't came to school today. I just wanna sign the contract and ya start schooling as per normal! Please hurry.. So been hanging out with the boys and girlfies. I can't remember what we have been doing. I try to remember a little. So on Monday I don't even wished to attend school as school would real real late and it will definitely be a bored day, and ya Monday blues.. So I head down to Nazry's crib and the Simpsons part was really hilarious. He didn't laugh much as he was really( always the same old reasons) SLEEPY!!

Okay I really hope this Fridays plan would work and Saturday maybe towning with the loves and Sunday to Zura's jemputan. And ya, nak kene jumper budak budak fernvale ni siang nak mampos! Around one in the afternoon. Ya, I would always says that we should meet usually at two and I would always be the last person to reach. And kalau satu jam lebih takper, I would always be late for three to four hours, heh! Aper aku buat pun aku tak tahu! LOL!

&& swimming session with the boys was really fun:)

People has been tagging me about what Nazry is about. His past, his 'sialan', his whatever lah. And I would say that I don't even know who to believe, seriously! I'm in such a confused state!

Tags from peoples..

Queenie: don't you think he's going back to you, just becos Malina don't want him back? just a thought. no offence.

Mystery guy: OMG... u didn't learn a lesson right?It's just a matter of time before he repeat his msitake again. Trust me..I know him longer than u or malina

18 August 2008, 13:03
shahirah: u may not noe me but your guy used to go out with one of my friends. i just wanna tell u, u deserve so much better than this trash! while with my kawan dia contact malina. he will deny everything and even after my kawan found out, he had the cheek to say malina yg carik dia. he is a grade A jantan sial!

18 August 2008, 13:06
shahirah: and malina was not the ONLY one! ada 2-3 lagik pompuan lain. he will start spending time with u abeh lepas tu start ah dengan perangai sial dia! he even told my friend that all the girls who ctc him like him but dia suka because not his type! dah lah rupa takder, perangai mcm sial. linsih, u dont need this.

i want u to be happy: if i were u,i believe based on his past experiences, people can say alot of things which mean nothing but pack of lies, how many times must u get hurt juz becoz u LOVE someone

.......................

and her blog. (sorry to someone for taking it without your permission!)

shahirah: malina, im glad u dah dump tuh jantan sial. while dia dgn my kawan dia contact u. abeh dia bilang my kawan u hegeh2 nak kan dia balek! now dia dgn linsih, abeh kadang2 pun still msg my kawan,

shahirah: dia will say all those sweet mushy things. my friend tau dia skg dgn linsih and he cakap dia layankan linsih jer! so please whatever you do, jgn patah alek dgn si puki tuh! biar orang lain tanggung

shahirah: balak because orang mcm u and my friend deserve so much better.i really cannot stand that jantan sial. lucky my friend reject bila dia ajak maen..

linsih: and iyllia terok sgt ker sampai mintak sumer? whatever it is, he says that he did not contact any girls out there and i'm really not sure who should i believe, seriously. Malina aku confused!

malina to linsih: haha. k chill ah gang. this syahirah nyer tag like got kene mengena ngn the one who tag ,"eh naz,aku mcm nak tarik konek kau &blablabla" kannn?

linsih: ya, its like shahirah and this KIA or AIK benci sgt ngan iyllia. i dont know who to believe ah seriously!! kalau kao aku, kao percayer saper?

shahirah: i dunno who that person is. im just telling you what i know abt that loser bastard. and yes, i hate him a lot. seriously he is a hopeless sweet talking loser and im glad my kawan dump dia. up to u

Wan's birthday celebration was a blast. Yesterday swimming session was okay ah boleh ah. Hahaha! And I spent my Saturday with the usual love ones. Towning with them. For me it wasn't towning at all. For the rest ya lah. Well, Farhan has gotten his Reebok Voltron from overseas. Aku punyer sort...! So at night I met up with the rest at Esplanade. Ah kao , aku turun ramai sak orang dudok berderet. Sumer gang gang diorang ah ni!

I didn't attend prelim just now as I was at Sengkang. Okay, my National Day celebration was okay ah, but the fun in the morning was hell yeah. Well, those babies F are the sex, HAHAH! So the ones following was Ajan, Abg Nazrul, Zamir, Wan, Lala, Afiq, Hidayah, Aie, Leha, Zura, Farhan, Mael, Sheila and her friend Riza, I think. Met up the loves at Fernvale and as usual I would always be the late one. Janji kul 2, aku sampai kul 5, heh!! Kan baik, sanggup diorang tunggu aku! Hahaha. And bus ride to town. Well don't talk about this thing so we had dinner at Far East while some of them headed elsewhere. Bus ride to City Hall, bunger api pun dah takder. Well, we walked one fucking big round just to get to Esplanade. While walking I was really retarded I admit. Seriously! And the cartoon characters on those windows at Esplanade was hilarious and I was laughing like such a retarded person. I swear you would laugh too. Ah yer lah, aku keatwer gitu macam korang sumer kekek kan pat aku! So met up with the party peeps at Esplanade. So we waited for the other rest and my baby came, Mira. Okay, met the party peeps at Esplanade too. So there was Izzat, Yan, Hadi, Haziq, Azlan and more of them. So we slacked together. And the loves plus me we were singing all the way. Hahah, I love singing with Abg, seriously. Somemore the 'Kasih Mengapa' song, hahahha! Well, I miss Karaoke-ing.

We wanted to head down Clarke Quay since the rest was tired so we slacked at Esplanade all the way till morning. Kalau Aie dah bawa IC, dah enjoy ah diorang pat MoS, nasib baik dier tak bawak! Heh! Gian jek aku, sial btol. LOL!! NR to Anchorvale and slack and the walk from Anchorvale to Fernvale was aduh! And home.

So yesterday I head down Fernvale and met up with the boys and slack. And saper punyer bodoh tah pegi tarok kunci Zamir pat dalam bag aku and tak tahu nak kluarkan. Aku dah kanchiong giler babi punyer siol. So spent the night at Fernvale. First to An's crib had supper and off to Ajan's crib had supper again with Ajan and watched 'Kuntilanak' and 'The Love Guru.' And the part where I hug and kissed Nazry on his cheek and whispered to him..'I really miss you and us so much.' And he shed tears. It was really, I don't know what to say. And downstairs, I had a good talked with him. And I can see that he's really confused, seriously. And I didn't even expect that he would say that he misses us much. So I spent my morning at his crib and I really had good times with him. And later that night spent the times with the boys and haha the physical training the boys had was really hilarious and it was instructed by Abg, Nazry's elder brother.

Heaha(i dont even who is this stupid hate tagger, haha!): "the one who thinks she's hot when she's actually not. told ya nazry would leave you. DURHHHH. even a dumb person can see that. stupid beeatch."

L: "she? who is she? well get that straight. so what if nazry leaves me? we're still close you dumbass! you don't even know the story so you should just stop hate tagging. :) "


Well, I need my rest and having my prelims tomorrow. And I really hope tomorrow is gonna be a better day at SCHOOL! fcuk!

N: "Boncet! Tdo kan?Lau tersadar ke ape e, msg hp i je k... Love ya! N i mean it...k3?"
L: "My hp pat bilik. 'love ya' U really mean what u said is it? Hahah.."
N: "Yalah..!!! Tknk caya suda... =( "
L: "Haha.. Yer ker? Abeh muker sedih.. Haha"
N: "Lau tk syg,pagi tdi tu ape?? Tkpela..up 2 u nk caye ke tk..."

Gays in disguise.Yan

Headed down Fernvale and slack with the boys and girlfies. And off to An's crib. They played Winning Eleven while I was surfing the net and happily chit chatting away with John and Izzat, and maner ader taik mesti ader lalat, HAHAH! AJAN SEBOK JEK!! After slacking to An's crib and I had dinner with An while Ajan was surfing the net. I had fun with An, Ajan, Nazrul and Mail later that morning. We came out with alot of stupid games and of course we played those stupid games. Eventhough it was stupid, but yet, it was really fun and HILARIOUS! Reached home around seven plus and to sleep, penat sak gang! Buat aper pun aku tak tahu! I guess the body aching was from the swimming session with the boys yang badan kene hempap dengan slide, heh! So today the plan was to meet my dearest Fadzly but I overslept. I woke up around two and I didn't wanna tag along to Queesnway and town. But they forced me. Tak menyesal langsung aku turun Queensway ngan town ngan sayang sayang Fernvale aku. Hahaha. So there was Mira, An, Ajan, Zura, Leha, Zamir, Wan and Nazrul. I had extreme fun with them. Well An bought Mira a New Balance Elmo, which looks really cute on her. A'ah, her next victim will be the hot red dunk low. Takder kick ah tu! Sappp! The $180 Air Max at Warped was definitely on my list! But I'm really not sure whether I should search for myself the Air Max or Trainer. And I'm so freaking freaking freaking freaking jealous of someone who had bought himself a Voltron! Sialan! Aku make sure aku rompak rumah kao, besar tak besar, aku tetap rompak punyer! Confirm mater ramai memandang, chey! Hahaha! And Wan bought himself a Globe skate shoes. And we had dinner at Lido. The rest had KFC while I had Subway for dinner. Thanks alot ehk Wan for the treat. And of to Cineleisure and An bought his stuff at Revoltage. Ah Revoltage Revoltage aku punyer JUICE tertinggal pat bag, pantat! Okay, tomorrow's plan would be meeting the boys and girlfies at Fernvale and slack for a little while and off to town, for my audition(wish me luck!) and off to either Marina or Padang, I'm not really that sure! Tomorrow will be hell of fun man, I can't wait!

Everything is going smoothly for me right now, haha. Actually not that smooth. As there are some things lingering on my mind. But I did said to Nazry through messages just now while I was on the way back home. Okay yesterday I spent my night at Fernvale dengan due orang giler, yang boleh buat korang ketawer terbahak bahak. Hahaha, Ajan and Mamat. They spent the night with me, thanks ehk. Deedee went home early as he had school the next day. The block to block counter strike with both of them was really really hilarious. Sampai nangis nagngis sak, haha. Mamat and Ajan ah. The off to playground and they keep watching Mok's video and making fun of it. And of to the gym corner and we sat there making up stupid jokes. And Mamat punyer teka teki punyer lah kekek! Cute sak diorang.

Yeah, I did have the intention to head down school just now, but I was really tired. And I reached home around seven I think. Woke up around five plus and loads and loads of text messages that I had to reply too and loads of miss calls too. -_________- I was really tired and thought of not coming down Fernvale today, Mira and Zura did asked me to head down Sengkang. So I met Deedee at Khatib, punyer lah lambat, okay lah only for forty five minutes, untok bestfriend punyer pasal ah, aku tunggu. Bus ride and saw Nazrul on the bus, so to Fernvale and we talked about China men and women pasal ketiak ngan mulut diorang, haha. Deedee started it all first then Nazrul, haha. Thanks ehk Dee antar aku sampai bus stop, heh! Syg you banyak banyak.

Yesterday, I had a good talk with Deedee. He moved me. Seriously. He knock some sense into me. And we did talked about what I wanted to do all. He did advice me all. "Kalau kao nak buat dengan kao tak pandang orang lain, kao pandang lah aku sebagai bestfriend kao. Aku taknak sak Linsih kao buat bende bodoh ni sumer. In future kao kene fikir jugek. Aku cakap ni sumer pasal aku sayang kan kao. Sumer orang sayangkan kao sak Linsih." Aduh.. I cried non stop with all his words that came out. And ader taik mesti ader lalat, Ajan. Hahaha! He even said that he doesn't want me to do all this stupid stuff. And there's more people who knock some sense into me, the love ones. Mira, Leha, Zura, Wan and all. Zamir and Wan even took the time to hear out my story. Well, they did cheer me up :)

I need to say something about my fernvale friends. I just need to let it all out. It's okay if only out of I dont know how many people only one reads it, seriously.


DEEDEE, my bestest friend ever! He was there to hear out what I have to say and he knows real well what I've been through and he definitely knows how I feel. He was the one who has been knocking some sense into me. He was the one who made me think positively. I just can't lose a nice lad like you, seriously. I know you're really concern and care about me. And you know I love you:)

AJAN, the most annoying yet funny cums bahan kacau (orang), is such a nice lad. He has been there for me through my sad(?) times. And the night after I broke down and cry and he and An were out there trying to find some cash for me. He surely knows how to make me laugh when I'm down. I love you:)

MIRA, my bestest girl. The one who has been comforting me all this while. About the problems, the misunderstandings and whatever shit that I've been through with Nazry. She's there to listen and giving me advice. I really thank you alot for making me and Nazry back together the last time.( The first time we fought over, I can't remember what.) I love you real much baby!

AN, he's also has been there for me lending his ears to hear what I have to say and he knows what I've been through. He did comfort me and gave me hope. I like what he say, 'what goes, comes around.' The night I broke down and cry and I was on the phone with him and Mira. And him trying to find some cahs for me too! I love you lah brother:)

ZAMIR, oh this guy who always care to listen to my problems and what I've been through all this while. He do give out opinions and advices. I love you too lah bro:)

WAN, si Chris Brown ni. Hahaha, I know he do care about me. He's like my elder brother. And he even said that he likes seeing me being together with Nazry. But yet everything is now down the drain. Whatever it is, I love you lah Wan!

MAMAT, I don't share much stuff with him. But he did asked what happen between me and Nazry when we were walking back just the two of us. I did said to him. I didn't expect him to say anything. Oh well, one I love about Mamat is that I love partying with him. Hahaha! I love you. Saying I love you to Mamat is a lil bit uncomfortable, haha! :)

ZURA, the one who comfort me. Well babe, nothing is gonna happen to your family aite? Anything, lending of ears, shoulders to cry on I'll be there for you. And I even try my best to help you aite? I love you:)

LEHA, she lend me her ears and listen to my problems. She do gave me some advices. Even when she is having her hard times with someone she do care to listen. I love you too babe:)

&&

NAZRY, the one who had my heart broken real real bad. Thanks ehk! Really ah thanks alot seh! What I have to say is that I really regret meeting and I really really regret loving you and putting high hopes on you. I thought you're someone different now, but yet you're not. You're still the same. I know I don't have the right to say this. But well, as you can see I remember you saying "pompuan mcm gini blh percayer ker?" I think I should say to anyone ah, "laki mcm kao blh percayer ker?" That's more like it. Sorry ah you! But you see, you have not know me that well, so you don't even have the right to say that to me. Cermin diri sendiri! But I do thank you alot for every thing ah. Thanks for giving me hope, okay ah boleh ah. Thanks for the love. Eventhough you didn't even love me once. Thanks for being there for me. Thanks for sacrificing yourself for me. Thanks for the relationship, because of the relationship I commit myself to commitment and because of commitment AND you I slowly stopped my drinking habit and partying. As what I texted you earlier on on how we were before we became an item. You know I miss that. I can't really say that I love you as a friend cause now I do have my hard times accepting you as a friend. I'm so sorry if what I have stated here is such a nuisance rather than the pleasure one(s). I'm sorry.

L: "I miss u, okay2 ah., i miss us. I nak mcm dulu before u ngan i jadi matair."
N: "U nk cam dulu sblm kte matair...? i sembarang..."

OKAY, I got swimming session with the boys later on in the evening, haha.
will update more, bye:)

I've been missing for exactly a week now. So I try to recall every single thing that I've been through for the past one week. Okay, started off with.... yeah the day we headed town with the boys and Mira. I have the pictures already. And yes nothing about school, as usual. So, I headed down Nazry's crib and was on the bus with Zamir and Arifah. And waited for him to get himself ready, punyer lah lembab. And as usual I would fall asleep whenever he's not around me. So slack with Bob and Mamat and made our way to town. I know Nazry hate doing shop with me. So, I prefer girlfriends to shop with me the next time round. -__-" Off to Far East, had dinner at Cahaya and so I bought Gladiator too. I really want those Flesh Imp shorts at Heeren since Nazry says's it isn't that nice at all, so I didn't bought it. And Topshop, the most favourit-ed brand of all, since I'm a Topshop freak, heh! It's closed. And I wanted to head down Cineleisure, Nazry punyer lah malas! While I'm always at Far East, I have this habit that I can't take my eyes of the Singapore Miami Ink Shop, lol! Tattoo and piercings shop lah. Nazry was really fucked up about what I wanted to do. Real scary. Off to Fernvale and slack with the boys till morning and off to Nazry's crib. Blah blah blah... and we had plans again.

This time plan was karaoke. Hahaha! The ones following was me of course, Nazry, Nazrul, Zamir, Wan, Leha, Zura and Nazrul's girlfriend I think. It was okay lah. I sang a few song only. As I was really really sleepy at that point of time. But I did enjoyed myself there with them. And headed down Far East after that to have our dinner. And I met Niny and her girlfriends. So had dinner at Cahaya. The night was fun. So off to Fernvale to get Everlast back and off home. I was really shagged and busted. Only Nazry knew how busted I was, haha!

So Saturday I headed down to my cousin's wed. Which was really near from my place. My cousin look extremely gorgeous in her suit. And the couple look really happy together. And I can that my cousin ws really nervous, haha. Well, we all are happy for her. The new beginning for her. Dah ader cousin in law, hahahaha! The next day was even a great one! WE all were real tired but we did have fun here and there. And aku nyanyi tak sedap sekali and my heart was thumping real fast. I sang only two song. My heart and Mainan Cinta both with Wan. I saw, Danial, Ayie's friend, Diyy and her boyfriend and Zack.

(more pictures soon)

I officially broken up with Nazry. Actually I didn't even asked for a break up, it just that I only wanted a break from this relationship, that's all. But if he thinks we're broken up, then let it be. I was really heartbroken lah. But as day passes I try to move on without him. I have my friends, my pillar of strength. The one who were there for me all along, through my hard times I've been through with Nazry and all. And the misunderstandings and all. Well, he did tell me how he felt all this while. He tried to move on with me, but he just can't. Yeah, I don't blame him. And of course I don't blame Malina. I don't blame anyone, seriously. All I could do is just wish him luck to get what he really wants right now. I cried the whole night yesterday and my eyes still hurts alot. Lembab! LEBAM! Hahahaha!

I really thank Mira, An and Ajan for comforting me all this while. And thanks alot to them for making me feel really really beautiful in the inside and the outside, seriously. I love you guys so much. And the rest Wan, Zamir, Leha and Zura all, thanks alot for being there for me:)

And to Nazry, thanks ehk for breaking my heart. Thanks alot for shattering all my whatever lah ehk. Thanks for every single thing. I appreciate every single thing, the fucking sacrifices, the FAKE tending loving care and whatever shit ah. I'll try to move on. But for now, you know I still do have feelings for you. I just hope that the feelings would fade real real fast as I'm really afraid I would hurt even deeper. I'm sorry if all this while I have hurt your feelings all but it definitely cannot be compared to how much I'm really hurt right now. Good luck for you and Malina, all the best. She's a really nice girl, really she is:) Nazry you're an asshole you know that, haha. Sorry ehk bawang.

"Hey ass! I've made my decision... i tink staying single 4 a few mths is da bes.... n ill tink vry2 wisely during dat period of time and make d best decision....thanx alot 4 evri tink.... i don regret getting 2 2 noe u...n thanx for making me drug free k boncet!! Nk trn sni tkmo malu2.... lau nak ton pn i tk mind temaning u.... bye BONCET!!!"

I need shower and get myself ready, meeting the boys and girlfies at Fernvale.
I miss them so much.

I really hope there won't be any LEBARAN & it's definitely illegal to break a women's heart.