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2010-01-18T02:32:00.003+08:00

Topshop blue mini dress

UK 8
U.P: $39
Now: $30
9/10

Small Size
U.P: $39.90
Now: $30
9/10

Beach bubble dress
Free size
U.P: $25
Now: $20
8/10

High waist skirt(Black)
Free Size
U.P: $30
Now: $25
Brand new
10/10

Strapless mini dress
Free Size
U.P:$35.90
Now:$10
7/10

Flower top
Free Size
U.P: $12
Now: $10
10/10

2009-04-11T15:41:00.005+08:00

I have a new blog account. And the link is at the top of the page. I'm no longer using blogspot.com anymore. I'm using wordpress.com for now. So yeah. But still continue on tagging at the old blogspot.com. Hahaha. I have no idea whether wordpress.com could have a tagboard or not. I'm still discovering it. Hoho!

2009-04-07T02:07:00.003+08:00

Pretty right? I know. Tengok uh adek dier saper kan?

I'm just tooo lazy to post something about the past few days what ever that has happens. Like I say, I promise sooooooon enough, hahaha! And to Saedah, nak join, join jek! Nak tahu pasal bende ni join jek. Sayer tak kesah. I miss girls here below, real much!

Will be meeting Mira and Lienna tomorrow since I asked too. cause I miss them freaking much. It's a waste Warda could not join us cause she got her own plan. And I really hope Saedah and Hid could make it. Oh yes, I miss 'babylovee'. :(:(:(:(:(:(:( And the talks with Iyllia yesterday morning was okay lah. Ader satu part ni I kept telling stories about 'J' and member macam tak suker. Hahahah, funny boy lah you! Sigh... Annnnnnnnd, "cause I still do care for the both of you." Is it a must to care for me after you had hurt me deeply? Wasted.

2009-04-05T19:14:00.003+08:00

Okay first thing first I promise to update a proper post soon! I promise you that. And I miss my fernvale babies sooooooo much! I miss the boys, I miss the girls soooooo freaking much! And again too! I miss my bestest mates on earth! My mates, I miss you all man. I don't even know why I'm missing sooooo many peoples. Hahahaha! So yeah! Anyways, I wanna shower and get myself ready since I'm heading over to Sengkang to meet them up. Hoho! And of course I miss this mate of mine, J. Hahahaha! Dier very cute tao! Only after five years, something very unexpected is happening. I'm in love someone who use to be just a normal friend for five years plus and then maybe we use to argue with each other. But now, things has totally change! Real much! And to Warda, who is that lucky guy that you had fallen in love with? :) Hehehe! Btw babe, I wanna meet you guys all up soon can? :( And to Nassy, she loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeees entertaining me non stop. Macam dah kenal lamer ehk kiter? Hahaha, she's very cute tao! And meeting a long time no see friend around midnight later. Yang suker gemar banget sama motor! Hahahah!

ciao homies.

2009-04-05T01:27:00.002+08:00

First was, you like each other. Then....
I think I'm lucky to have fallen in love with my mate, J.

I'm smiling over such little things when it has something to do with him. What the fuck is wrong with me? Hahaha, Love struck! He may not be the very handsome guy. But he has a very 'cute' perangai. (i also dot know what the hell am i talking) Hahaha! Really, cute giler punyer. Kerana kao punyer cute lah, aku terpikat dengan kao! Warda, Maz atao Saedah bace rconfirm kekek kan aku punyer. Tapi I like him what, tak salah kan? Hahahaha.

2009-04-03T01:41:00.009+08:00

Wonderful mates on earth!

the excess skin, ignore it.

maz<3>

the girls<3>

this is beautiful.

laut dier cantek!

cuddles.

dula&warda<3>

saiful&dula<3>

saiful&warda<3>

dog&bone. what a game, haha.

this shot is nice.

planning.

oh ya peh ya som!

i think i look so small here. i am small. heh! standing there only.

cute kan?

sweet faces. <333>

siti warda, ily too:)

they look cute together, haha.

oh yes! i like this boy here! he's getting cuter!

ni cuteeee giler.

I'll update my post sooooooon. More pictures at Warda's! Bugis tomorrow for their photoshoot and out with Hyril. I'm hopping to meet Hyril up tomorrow. Since Hyril will be endgin his work at 5.30pm. And I miss him soooooooo much! Heh! He's nice okay. Oh ya, expect the unexpected. I saw my exboyfriend with his girlfriend. And I'm hopping he's doing fine. Bye!

2009-04-02T00:01:00.002+08:00

Pictures from yesterday celebration at Paris Ris Park.

&&&&&&&&&&&&&........

The pit with the very own secondary mates was fun fun fun. I enjoyed it so much. I really can't explain how much fun I had with them, really. Sorry to somebecause I feel very uncomfortable. Really. Thanks alot for everything my friends:) I love you all. Pictures from the pit will be up soon when the babes are ready to send me:)

I need sleep cause I'm damn tired. And me very very sleepy for not sleeping for two straight days. Wah paing! Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd..... I think I like someone from my old mates. Damn! He's getting cuter man! sighhhhh. Hahahahah! ciao!

happy 17th.

2009-04-01T08:19:00.002+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday
to my very very own bestfriend,
JUNAIDI.

It's because of you, I had such wonderful friends. It's because of you I try my very best to change. It's because of you who has been supportive in whatever littlest thing that I do. It's because of you that I use to have someone so wonderful. It's never a waste of time, of life that I had such a wonderful friend like you. I love you like how I love the rest of our friends. I don't wanna lose you. That's all I'm asking for. And please do think wise, your a year older now. Do the best. Be a winner in life. I promise you, I won't do anything stupid. I won't do anything that would break your heart and saddens you up. I promise I'll be your good friend. And promise me, me a good good son. And I don't have to remind you this cause you're a good friend. A wonderful friend indeed. I love you, bff:) Muackz.

happy 18th ass.

2009-03-30T01:12:00.003+08:00

So yes, its the 30th today. I celebrated someone's birthday at East Coast which is Iyllia's. So the night was fill in with fun and fun. Hahaha. So on the 25th itself I woke up around two plus cause Iyllia asked my lil sister to wake me up. I washed myself up and all. Pack my stuff and cooked something. I made a move and to Tampines first. I bought him a small piece of Chocolate Truffle, since I know he loves that cake. So yeah. 31, bus ride to Marine Parade. I called them up then cab to East Coast. Wah, near near jugek, tapi cab fare reach nearly seven dollars. It's quite expensive since I'm myself from Marine Parade. And so, I reached East Coast around six plus. The boys were doing stuffs like building their arms all. Hahaha, cute uh. Then I was like outside with Deedee, while Ajan and Iyllia went to the toilet. Talking about this and that all. After awhile Huda reached our place around eight nine? So yeah, for that night I'm a winner. Oh heck care, I',m always a winner. Hahaha. Ajan lost $18 to me because he was such a loser at taiti! Hahaha! But at least I clear my debts towards him what? Hahaha! So Ajan and Huda made a move around eleven. I send them untill the road there alah behind Burger King. Then back to the tent. Slack and talk with Iyllia and Deedee. And to Ajan! "ilek sua aku tak kasi korang torn! Padehal padehal! Soyal!" I don't really mind if there's poeple hanging out with us from night till morning. Saper larang, tk btol? Dee made a move around eleven plus. And was left with just the two of us. Oh well, the clock strike nearly twelve and he was like, "da kul bape uh?" Oh ya, around twelve he asked me to accompany him to the beach since he's doing something. I did not and he went alone. So yeah I was like sitting in the tent. And I took out the small piece of cake and I lighted up a candle and him noticing that the tent was slightly brighter I think and was smiling away and he pointed a middel finger on me, soyal! Because earlier on I asked him to help me throw some rubbish. And by the look of his face, he was speechless. Haha, very funny lah. He made a wish and he blow it. And is it him or me gave a kiss on cheek. I can't remember. Oh..... it was me. Hahaha! And he thank me all. I'm sorry I didn't bought anything for you. It was a last minute thing that I could whole loads of cash for that day.

"I love it....cume sah suey jek...d bes part is wen we share thoughts n SWIMMING!!! ure vry appreciated!

"Don wori la....u made my dae!"

Then this and that, we took our valuables and grab some bites. Okay so supposingly the night was so full of things happening just like OLD times. Really. Like how we use to have our first picnic date together. Oh hell, that was the bestest picnic date ever man. Hahaha, the funny part was, someone call me his 'wifey' for a day. Hahaha, tu zaman dulu. Chey macam dah braper tahun lalu gitu ehk. Lol! We grab ourselves amsterdam, double cheeseburger, peach tea and entah ehk aper tah lagik. So yeah, tehn we headed back to our tent.
And something that was not suppose to be done, has been done. Like what the hell?! Yeah, yeah. Blame on something. So we did something that we're NOT suppose to do! It's like him betraying that fucking someone and me betraying my very own midget footballer. Only God knows and some close ones knows about it. But what do I care. If she knows, it's his own fault. Not mine. Cause my footballer can't get to know every thing what is written here:) I'm very very mean uh? A mean girl indeed. To a particular someone only.
So earlier that morning he took a nap for a while and me cleaning up the tent cause it was a mess. And he knows how childish I could be.

Wait wait, Iyllia knows how ..........

childish.
disgusting.
noisy.
angry.
sensitive.
merepek.
kind hearted, saaaaaaaaaap haha!
mentel/cheeky.
sweeeeeeeeeeet.
seductive. nyehehe! fuck.

I could be. Hahaha!

I was messing around with his Palmolive Powder and dolling him up while he was taking his nap. I pour quite alot and mess around with his nose, his face, his nipple and his back. Hahahah. Oh haha, I 'drew' a picture of Ajan at his back and a bin at his top left shoulder. Ajan per, macam tak tahu plak! So around nine we pull down the tent and spread it wide. And mandi laut. He can say so, overcome my phobia a little bit uh. Cause part part mandi laut ni aku phobia bukan sket, tapi banyakkkkkk! Lol! So yeah. And this Iyllia Nazry kan. Aku kenal dier punyer mentel dengan aku macam maner. Whenever we're about toooooo.... he would give me this cheeky smile. Alah I taught him those stuff ones. Cause I'm always the one who gives him my cheeky smile. Sebab tu member suker. Hahaha! Whatever it is, I love the 'mandi laut' with him. Member dah lah maken tan. Then it was drizzling only for fucking five minutes, wah piang! We moved to a shelter and he took his shower then I took mine. We slack at McDonalds due to something. And I don't wanna write it here. It was fucked. Hahaha. And guess what I even said that, "fuck 26 man!" Hahaha. We made a move around four plus then bus ride. Dier bus ride kan punyer lah heaven. Hahaha. I took a nap in the bus and I dreamt of something. I dreamt that budak budak fenrvale sumer jadi artiste. Wtf? seriously uh. They were doing their interviews and all and cameraman's were clicking here and there. Hahaha! And dorang punyer sial, nak step macam paham! Hahah, cause I did told them what I dream of. We reached Fernvale and how cute can the boys be. Deedee ngan Ajan peh sial buat cake dalam tarok bawang. Eeeeewwwww! We were there laughing out loud. And I guess Iyllia like his mini celebration, haha. Yeah, slack and all. Then later that night I was on the phone with Shavy for a little while then bed.
And so I spent my Saturday to chalet. Supose to be going out with Shavy just the two of us since we both wanted to go town. But then I changed my mind and I head down to Hazmi's chalet. Then we made a move around one plus ion the morning as he friends wer kind enough to drop us at Sengkang, Then the three of us me, Hazmi and Payan slack with the boys. There were Farhan, Iyllia, Mamat and Ajan. Then around three I guess I followed Iyllia and he gave us a slice of cake from Secret Recipe and Haagen Daaz chocolate ice cream. And I soooo love the morning spend with the boys. It was fun, hilarious and fun. It was Payan first time meeting them and he loves hanging out with them. Member ngan Ajan dah macam adek bradek. Hazmi ngan Farhan lagik jangan cakap, teros samer. Kembar sebodek! Lol! Then earlier that morning around six I met Iyllia at the lift lobby because of something. Something, very mangkok! Only he knows uh. Unless he tell our friends, aku sepak dier peh muker. So we spent time and yes, at last buat jugek. How ehk Iyllia? Kao kalau bilang kawan kao, aku sumpah aku tk friend kao uh! Hmmmphhh! Lagik2 Deedee, Mamat ngan Farhan! Then I reached home around eleven in the morning and my parents was having breakfast and I did something for while this and that and bed. Slept around twelve and woke up around four. Supose to be towning with Shavy, I paitao him! Kesian dier. He was suppose to having match at Sengkang Sec but then it was raining heavily today. So I cancelled our plan and I took a nap until nine. And television all the way.

And it's Monday today. Sigh... I'll update up soon. Ciao!

2009-03-27T20:39:00.001+08:00

I'll update later on aite. I'm getting myself ready and off to meet Shazi up. Since he's playing soccer wih his friends. Ciao!

2009-03-25T05:14:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah, I forgot to type down. What I did after the chalet. Hahaha. So after town on Saturday night slack at Fernvale then made a move by around four in the morning and cab ride to Downtown. Since I promised someone that I would overnight there. Yeah, thanks for the cab fare. Baek btol kawan aku ni. Hahaha! Nak aku turon peh pasal, sanggup bayarkan duet cab. Most of his friends went back and left with me, Izzat, Haziq and Aci, I think. So around seven I took a nap and his dad woke me up with his deep 'rock' voice. Hahaha. Watched tv and took a quick shower. We had breakfast at the food court and his mum was treat me. Thank you. And the we proceeded to Escape Theme Park and again, his mum treat me. Haiyo! But hell yeah, I had fun. I sumpah I won't take that Pirate thing again man! Kalau laki, bo pleh dah kat tekak! Sial btol, seram babi punyer! Babi naek pun babi menanges siol! Lol! My lungs was about to burst man! Tapi serious uh, seram siol! I enjoy taking the family coaster ride. I know, kental. But funny tao. I was sitting next to his little sister and she was laughing non stop. Hilarious. And I was like, 'nak naek lagik roller coaster ngan yg basah basah tu?' referring to the wet 'n' wild thing. Hahaha!

So just now I head down Fernvale and the boys were playing soccer. I join only after they had finish. "Practice makes perfect." Hahaha! Slack and slack. And made a move around midnight and ride to Admiralty. I didn't meet up with Shazi :( Oh well, I don't think I'll be attending school later on cause ader lah sebab sebab nyer! I'm going out around three four later on to Tampines Mall and then to East Coast.

I was talking on the phone with Iyllia and he sound so sedehhhhhh. Haiyo! I don't know what to say anymore. Hahaha. I'll update pretty soon then. Don't forget to listen to more Ultraviolet. They're sexy.

Ciao!

2009-03-24T18:18:00.002+08:00

Horoscope:

Aquarius
People might say they need you right now, but do they really? Can't they make do without you just this once? Find out. Because you can't possibly respond to every fire that erupts, and right now you need to prioritize yourself, first. There's nothing wrong with taking care of your own issues and then seeing how you can add something to the lives of others. Too many people think they can snap their fingers and you'll come running -- show them that's simply not the case.

Last Friday I head off to Tampines and met Izzat up. Train ride to Pasir Ris and to the chalet. We play card games and talk cocks. Mostly it was the boys talking shits. Made a move around two or three in the morning and off to Sengkang. Slack with the boys. Reached home and woke up around three. Got myself ready and meet the boys and Mira at town. Around Heeren and Cineleisure. Had Subway for dinner. Thanks Iyllia for the treat:) Muahaha! We, Farhan, Mira, me, Hazmi and Mamat made a move around eleven and ride to Fernvale. Since Mamat and myself wanted to catch our bus at Sengkang. Since he was going Changi and myself to Downtown. We miss our bus. Slack at hall and then one by one the rest came. I don't know why that night I seem to be so 'happy'. Really. Maybe I was still wondering how cute that guy was, who I met earlier at town. Hahaha. So here's the story. I'm not using any phone now. And yeah. I was queing up for the phone booth just to make a call to Farhan where to meet and all. And suddenly got this group of guy was standing not far from me and one of them gave me a smile. And he says whether I would wanna use his phone for a while. Then I say "Thanks alot then. You're my saviour. Hahaha." He gave me a smile and I made a move by rushing to Far East in case they left me. Hahaha. Veyr funny huh?! Thanks to that stupid Philipine woman who had put down the phone and puts in another thirty more cents. Wtf? Alah at least I get to know a very cute guy what. No lah this is not desperate liao.Hahaha.

We've been contacting each other every night though. Oh yeah, he's mix. He's chinese and malay. Like what I say, chinese guys are cute. Like this one! Hahah! Alah Iyllia, you got yourself a FOOTBALLER! I also got myself a footballer, lagik cute!! I sound like a freak. Damn. Okay, so I was texting Iyllia yesterday morning and on the phone with him. And guess what? He don't wanna contact me for the time being because he wants to let go of everything. I did said that I'm so over him. And I'm happy now. Whenever I told him stories about Shazi, that phone guy, haha. He would just kept quiet and pretend he heards nothing. Cause he says that he don't wanna listen to these things, it will just make him feel unhappy, I guess. I feel bad for it. But oh well, when you were telling me stories about her, do you know how I feel? Now then you know how I feel. And now whenever you're telling me stories about her, I feel nothing. I even said something to you. "If you can let go of it, be happy. If you can't, go for it. Go and chase for what you have always wanted." And you even thank me for that. I'm saying all this because you regard me a younger sister. And I can accept that:)

I'm treating just like a very close friend, a good cums a bad friend and a brother. Not more than that. And let me remind you something. I know by saying words would make a person think back of the past. And when I use to said things from the past, you would say you wouldn't wanna listen. And now, you wanna say something, let me tell you. I don't even wanna listen. I'm happy now with my life. I don't hold any more grudges against you anymore.

I have to attend school tomorrow since we're having an assignment and maybe soccer with the boys at school. I can't wait for soccer tomorrow. Kalau jadi. Oh yes, when I'm wearing jersey and shorts, I'm a boy to them. Really, tak bedek. Hahahah. Oh yeah, me and Iyllia will be going on a picnic date tomorrow. And willl overnight at East Coast. So call in celebrating his 18th with me. Hahaha. I wanna eat, shower and get myself ready. And may be tonight I'm meeting the phone guy. Kalau rajen uh. Hahahah!

Ciao homies.

2009-03-24T17:56:00.004+08:00

my friend, yang muker boy boy and turning 18 soon.

2009-03-20T17:01:00.002+08:00

Hello. This few days I've been spending time with the boys and all. I miss Zura so much. It's been so long since I've last saw her. Same goes to Leha and Nana. And Mira has been coming down Fernvale often. And it's good enough that I could see her. So yeah. Wednesday morning I spend my time away with Iyllia. Yes, I forced him to spend the time with me. Hahaha. At last, I did. So yeah, the 'spending time' together was really great. I didn't expect things to turn out that way, really. And yeah, we talked about this and that. We talked alot. We did things which you think it would hurt her if she knows it. It really hurts me alot, seeing myself torturing myself. Oh well. I'll update real soon. I wanna watch Ellen and my chinese drama, got myself ready and meeting Izzat at Tampines and off to his chalet.

Ciao homies:)

2009-03-20T04:51:00.002+08:00

I'll update soon....

Oh not to forget, I wanna thank someone for cheering me up through MSN. You know who you are, M. And go on read this about Katherine Von Drachenberg. My Idol:)

http://browseinside.harpercollins.com/index.aspx?isbn13=9780061684388&WT.mc_id=biWidget89b1b84c-1db0-4c07-9340-8c1b4d390db4

2009-03-17T02:39:00.002+08:00

Ni cute giler babi punyer, hahahahah!

Oh yes, we three were label as sisters. Because of we look alike.
And yet I was the one to be claim that
I'm the eldest and the both of them are my younger sisters.
Yet, I'm the YOUNGEST, the SHORTEST and of course uh the CUTEST per.
Hahahah!

2009-03-17T01:11:00.003+08:00

I'm not gonna type a long post here. Cause I simply would forget certain things easily. So started from last Friday. I've done my hair. I highlighted it up. Two tones, ya. Supposingly I wanted to have it in dark green and black as a base. And I did not have it that way. I basically picked dark brown as a base and slightly blonde for the highlights. It cost mummy around 75bucks just to get my hair done. Bus ride home with mummy, reached home and 'brangan' sekejap, kahaha. Most girls do that. Really. Hahahahaha.

So I spend my Saturday with the girls. Zura and Huda. Leha joined us for a little while and she had to left us three. Cause she was meeting Najib after. We walk all the way to Sungei Road just to survey some stuff and yeah. Huda bought herself a vintage bag and us this very cute scents. Hahaha. Then bus ride to Suntec and since we're going for this Body Shop sale held there, since it's the last day. In the end, the queue was pretty long and we were like, 'tak payah sudah'. We had Burger King for dinner and camwhore a little. Chatted this and that. Then around Marina for a little while only then 70 to Sengkang. Huda drop down at Hougang. We sat for a while and then the boys came. Blah blah blah. Then Iyllia came down slack, to Mail's block then nak kasi birthday bash, ending up gadoh. Wah seh! Reached home, ate something did this and that, Ellen show then bed.

So Sunday I woke up around three four plus in the afternoon. Got up and got myself ready and blha blah blah. Met up with Ajan, Zura and Iyllia at town. And yes, something sucky happened. I was being rude to him. Then he was being rude too. He cursed me like how I would usually cursed him "pegi mati lah kao!" While Zura was trying to calm me down and Ajan trying to cool him down, I crushed this paper from my bag and throw it at him. Kena kepaler, haha. Then member punyer sort jalan blakang aku, tinggi kan suare tolak aku. Babi btol, saket siak. Bus 16 to Jiak Kim and we slack outside Zouk for hours. Then very unexpected, Deedee came. I accidentally shouted, lol. I saw Suraya, Shaiz and friends, Ady, Haziq, Lanny and friends and much much more. And I'm sorry to Fatin and cousin for making you both wait just to get in. Then we partied till three plus cause the event ends at four. And the night was pretty awesome. I had fun though. Oh yeah, there was me, Iyllia, Zura, Leha, Deedee, Ajan, Teddy, Yayat, Hyril, Azmi and friends. There was 17 of us. And in the end sumer split, carek macam nak rak, tak sal! Walked to Great World 711 and had supper and slack. We make a ove around six plus and waited for the bus. Deedee went off with Azmi, Zura went off with Ted and Yayat. Leha went off with Hyril and Ajan. And me and Iyllia. Since he says that he wanted to board the bus with me sleep in the bus. And the morning with HIM! Was really funny. We nearly walked from City Hall to the church there uh. Waited for 80 and ride to Sengkang. And in the end it was me, who fall asleep. I had such a good sleep, really cause I was pretty tired and masai, sort off. Hoho! He pitied me since he thinks that I was soooooo tired, haha! Babe, from Zouk till the morning, the hugs and kisses was great, HAHAHA! I think it sounds sooooo totally wrong hahaha. But yeah, sweet of you. I had a great time with him too and dier kan gatal as he puts in 'nakal'. Hahaha, inside joke liao. Okay, I wanna sleep and I need to wake up around nine for school tomorrow.

(13th March)
Oh not to forget to this very hot friend of mine & my block neighbour too, haha.

Happy 17th belated birthday,
Diyanah

& to this very ex boyfriend of mine who I use to cherish, hahaha!
(oh well, i kinda miss him, really, hahah!)

Happy 17th birthday to you too,
Muhd Fadhly!

ok, ciao.

2009-03-10T00:58:00.002+08:00

Towning.

Last Last Friday, Karaoke Session.

I sooooo can't wait for Romp 4!

2009-03-08T16:38:00.004+08:00

Hello. Yes, my blog has been lacked of updates here now. Cause most prob I'm out with my friends and all and of course I'm plain lazy. So last week on Wednesday Deedee was admitted to hospital due to his asthma. So before that I spend the night at Iyllia's crib and we watch 'Meet Dave'. It's a hilarious movie though. So I took a nap for a while and he woke me up. We did not talk much. Cause I was tired and sleepy and him I don't know. And so something happen. I tear the piece of paper that I used to write to him once and him, he was very furious about it. Haha, okay sorry. I got myself ready and off home. I reached home around eleven plus, I took a shower got myself ready and bus ride to Changi Hospital. I spend my day at the hospital from the afternoon till around nine. Cuase WE know he will be very bored. Hahaha. I was suppose to have school on that day and this bloody Deedee made me worried and I even text Mr Ee up that I won't be attending school. Sigh! So the next day I was about to go to school, I suddenly remembered that Farhan could not fetch Deedee. So I made my way to the hospital and accompany him till his mum reached. Cab ride to his crib and I watched tv and took a nap for a while. And he's mum was being so kind enough to cook for me maggie, haha. Then Deedee told me some stories of Bedok Reservoir and how 'jakun' I am! Bus ride to Fernvale. So I spend my last week, Saturday with Hyril and his friends. So yeah, suppose to accompany Hyril to his friend engagement but I don't want too. Blah, blah and blah.

Eventually I spend my weekend very well. Last Friday I went out wit Hyril and company. The plan was karaoke at town. It was funfunfun. Really haha. And I got loads of compliment, suare sedap woi! Kahahahahaha! Had dinner first at Lido and then karaoke. After spending the night away I made my way to Raffles to Ajan's workplace. Slack and made a move by around one. Cab ride to Fernvale. I was too ashame how to face Deedee, Iyllia, Farhan and Zamir. I had a talk with Deedee followed by Farhan then Iyllia. Then talk with Iyllia macam kelakar gitu. But I like, heh! Thanks for the kiss on the forehead. And I did repay him with a kiss on his cheek and lips. And him repaying me back too, on the lips though. Nyeheh! They boys accompanied me to the bus stop and home. On the phone with Iyllia from seven till nearly in the afternoon. We had little little arguements and ending up with laughters. Tapi dalam hati maseh terfiker woi pasal bende2, fikiran babe. Hahah! Rest and sleep. And woke up around five, six? Yeah. Had dinner got myself ready and off to town. Meet up Deedee, Iyllia, Leha, Zura, Mamat, Farhan, Mira and Zura's cousin. Slack here and there and walk all the way to Far East. I was like, "where the hell did Farhan park his car man!?" Cause I was pretty tired that night. Then the plan was to Marina Barrage or S'pore Flyer. In the end, ending up at Fort Canning. We walk ups and down. Pictures here and there and slack. Made a move half past midnight. Send Zura and Mira off and ride to Fernvale. And now I'm very very bored. What the hell? Okay I'm doing my hair this Friday. So may be I should get myself psychedelic colours or maybe not. I'll think about it:)

More pictures will be up soon. I'm hungry and mummy is not home yet. Okay bye.

digital.

2009-03-06T15:28:00.000+08:00

2009-03-05T22:19:00.003+08:00

I got alot of things to write it's just that I don't feel like writing it down here cause I'm so fucked up.

Stuffs like.....
Iyllia Nazry.
Friendship.
School.
Most prob a new work:)
and more of course.

So I'm not doing quite well this few days. I'm having this fucking fever whenever I'm not in good terms with him and shits. Thanks to you I'm down with this fever. Go die lah better! I don't think the so call promise in yourself, like "no relationships and all" would not last long. As I can see is that, you're liking some one more and more, which is my Deedee's cousin. She even told me she would not even want to ruin our relationship, but YOU, IYLLIA NAZRY! Made me have a very bad relationship with her. Why are you so heartless? I don't mind you having something on with someone who I don't like or someone who I don't even know. Tapi ni kawan aku sendiri sak! You, youself don't like me having something on with the person you don't even like which is Hyril, abeh? Kao fiker aku suker tengok per kao ader bende dengan Huda? Kao punyer janji pader diri kao tu tak akan lamer lah sial. Buat angkong lah ni lah. Better get back to your old lifestyle lah asshole. Such a waste of my effort trying to change you into someone better. I believe that you could change even more. Yes, you're young I'm young. But I'm too too young to go through all of this. And you now enjoying yourself outside with your so call 'crush' and your friends which is my friends. You guys sucks alot.

2009-03-01T17:32:00.008+08:00

Keju!

The one who see the pain is us and all. Ily:)

Ni cute!

This one also!

Macam adek-beradek.

Si Fahrin Ahmad! Hahaha.

Iyllia took this. Abv & below.

i love this so call smile on him, really, haha. Mamat.

"i tknk, i nak ambek gambar dgn u.."
I'm still do loving you, and I know you still do:)

i love this picture. very funny & cute. & hidung dier besar!

So last Friday was town with Hyril and Biz. Suppose to meet up Hyril at seven but then as usual I'm always late. And he knows it well. So I reach town around eight plus. Then met them up at Wisma and around. We had dinner at Kopitiam. The later that night around nine, Zura and Leha joined us. Slack at Cineleisure then made a move. Train ride to Sengkang then cab. Meet the boys at Koufu then proceed to hall. Then Mamat come caling em up on the phone saying that they're stuck at Ubi. And last last, chao! Slack with the boys till morning. Took dozens of pictures. Had McDonalds for supper and blah blah. Cab home. Was really shagged and the talk on the phone with him yesterday was a lil bit 'frust' cause he's talking about me and Hyril. I know you do care for me, thank you:)

So I spend my Saturday to town again. Since Hyril and his friends had planned to watch Bloody Valentine or Role Model, since the cinema was really packed already, we changed our mind. We had dinner at Resto Surabaya then slack for a while. We made our way to Marina and we wanted to play bowling and like again the place was pack. And my cousin was there too. Kak Linda and her husband, Abang Nazri. So I met Ajan up at The Esplanade and bus ride to Fernvale. Then they boys were waiting for us, I think. Then cab ride to Downtown East and to Mima's chalet. Had supper and all, then Farhan came down. We all made a move by six since my eyes were really tired. So Farhan drop me down at the interchange then bus ride home. Thansk alot. And one thing for sure I love seeing them together who I meant was Iyllia, Farhan, Deedee, Mamat and Ajan. And so sweet of Aja, he says that he loves me alot, since I'm the only girl that could stay close to him. And I even teared when Iyllia told me that, Farhan care for me so much. And also he loves me so much! Yes, I know. I got such sweet brother's here by my side. Hehe!

Maybe will be staying over at Iyllia's place later on or may be not. I'll see about that. And to my very own friend, Iyllia. Good luck for the act and all. All the best:)

bye!

2009-02-27T15:45:00.002+08:00

I stick myself at home the day before yesterday. Then I had a phone date with Iyllia from midnight till morning around five plus. Then we put down the phone as he had to get ready and me too for school. He's going to school for I don't know what thing, while my class starts at eight. So I reached school exactly at eight and meet the boys up and off to class by eight thirty. School was suppose to end by four but then I went off by eleven since I was really tired and my body felt feverish. And yesterday actual plan was suppose to be heading down Beach Road since me and Iyllia had plan to have our lunch date there. Pasal member teringin nak makan Bone Steak! Hahaha! But then, I was sleeping soundly. Until I woke up around seven and he missed call me. Damn and I'm so sorry lah sayang! Then I got myself ready and Fernvale.

"I rindu u la.."
"I pn rindu u.."
Hahahah, he's really really cute tao!

So later plan will be towning and movie with Hyril, since he's treating me. And tomorrow town lagik, since he's going shopping and I'm gonna have a big fat appetite with him. Hahaha! So I wanna watch TV and get myself ready after that.

ciao!

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2009-02-27T14:21:00.003+08:00

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2009-02-25T07:19:00.003+08:00

I've just reached home and I don't think I'll be attending school later on. Cause NAPFA will be starting at nine-thirty and I don't think I would have the energy, lol! And I don't think ADP I will be attentive in class. So yesterday at school, I had another counselling session and this time it's only me and the section head. Banyak susah! Betol2 nak tahu aper jadi, but she's a really nice lady, really. And I'm so fucking ashame to face my very own form teacher, Uncle Ee. So lesson was suppose to end at five but then every day Uncle Ee, would release us an hour early.
Head down to Hougang and meet up with the girls and had McFlurry with them and off to Fernvale. And then spend the night with the boys. And I spent the morning with Farhan, Ajan and Mamat. The initial plan for that night was to wash and gave a very good waxing on the car, but then Iyllia came back from Bedok, since he went to school early in the morning with Deedee. Iyllia did call me up in the evening around five but I dind't picked up since I didn't hear my phone ringing. He asked me out to a movie, tapi sayang aku tak angkat tepon! Argh! Nabey, chibye! So HE wanted to spend time with me, since he says that he misses me real much. I miss you too really I do. Haha. So I think the hugs and kisses was pretty good and IRRESISTIBLE!!! -_____- what the FUSK?! Hahah. And I love you kissing my forehead, I know. You respect me, haha! So then, I walk him home to the lift lobby and off to the carpark. Tiga2, tinggal tunggu nak buat waxing ngan kering kan kereta, mcm siak. Baru nak basah kuyop! So I wipe the windows and all. And I accidentally tukar gear :P Alah, Farhan very the baek one. He drive us to Anchorvale and we ordered ourselves McDonalds for breakfast.

I'm taking an MC later on, if someone wakes up early he wouldn't mind accompany me to clinic right? Hahah, I miss him alot.
And one thing for sure, Iyllia very KPO lah(but actually I pick the course for him,ya i guess. he gets into Mechatronics), same school as me. Confirm kena fuck if I don't attend school regularly!

update more.
ciao.

2009-02-23T20:47:00.001+08:00

Mamat, slalu bebual, keatwer sorang2.

hoho, ADY!

APER SAJER TAH!! yg mepek pepek jek.

Iyllia dalam club memang suker joget sorang2.

the littlest thing.

2009-02-22T19:21:00.002+08:00

Thursday, I reach school around twelve plus. When supposingly class starts at eight in the morning. Met up with the boys at the auditorium. Made a move to class by one. And guess what class suppose to end at four, in the end it ends at two-thirty. Buang maser aku jek turon skolah. Haish! Accompanied Haziq to CDC for his driving thingy. And bus ride to Sengkang. The boys play takraw while I sat down with Huda talk this and that. And so, I did not attend school on Friday. Cause Friday will be only having DRW. And in fact, Uncle Ee would even realese uh early. For example, starts at nine, end at eleven. What a waste of cash.
So yesterday, was Saturday. Hyril asked me out. And eventually I paitao him. Cause of some reasons. And this coming Saturday he asked me out again, juts the two of us(i guess) to town for shopping. Sigh! I'm not sure about it. So got myself ready and got out around seven plus and 965 to Sengkang and 89 to Pasir Ris. Met up with Deedee, Mamat and Faezah. And met Iyllia up at Downtown. Then made a move to the chalet and it was packed with people. It was Ajan's granny and his cousin birthday I guess. This is the fucking first time I saw a resort packed with people. Really it's like nearly most of the chalet are booked. And the Huda came. And we played some games and stuff. And we had to make move since we don't wanna miss our bus. It was really really fun. 89 back to Sengkang and I, took 163 to Fernvale. Slack wih the boys till morning and off to Ajan's crib since me and Iyllia was bored. And before that something spooky happened. Really, not lying. There was Farhan, Iyllia Zamir and myself. Okay, forget about that. So, I sat infront of Iyllia and HE keeps moving towards me until I'm slipping from the chair. So we played boxing, street fighter and this bomb game. Funny, you know. And it remind of the old us. And ya, thanks for keep kissing me on the cheek. Lol! And thanks for accompanying me to the bus stop and thanks for the kiss:) Even the littlest thing I could smile. Damn, haha.

L:"I tyr u bende, cepat dudok!"
N:"Aper die?"
L:"U maseh ader perasaan sayang lagik tak?"
N:"Ader." *senyum mental*
L:"Perasaan rindu?"
N:"Yes, BUS! Cepat bus!" *cause i know he can't express thins mushy2 things*
L:"Ader tak?"
N:"Ader." *senyum mentel!!!!!!*

I grab hold of his hand, and he came towards me and game me a kiss on the lips. How cute is that. And he very mentel tao. Hahaha. I need shower and off to Fernvale!

Ciao Homies.

2009-02-18T16:56:00.000+08:00

2009-02-18T16:17:00.012+08:00

You will remember when this is blown over.

And every things all by the way.
When I grow older.
I will be there by your side.
To remind how I still love you.

heartbreaking.

2009-02-18T13:48:00.004+08:00

Currently chatting with Huda & Kai. Huda uh she really you know. Very too straight foward. I'm not thick skin lah babe! She told me to be staright foward to him, Iyllia, cause she says that I should start now. Pfft! Aiyo, it's really hard and it's a little to sudden.

"Its too hard to forget the things i had with u. Im just yearning for the love, care&concern, u pampering me. I miss all that. U were the one who build me up with confidence to love a guy again which is u. U were th one who i treasure most out of my friends, cause i believe we cld go far. U were the one who said, if i dont think negative stuff abt u, u say we cld go far. I feel hurt, why? Cause i put high hopes on u, u destroy it. I regretted slapping u. Im nt ashamed if u wanted to slap or beat me up infront of our friends cause i deserve it. I accept it cause im in the wrong. N i'll swear that i wld just let it go. So u wld nt even have to think abt it. I may be a bitch to you. But I still i loved you wholeheartedly n i didnt even took advantage of our love not even once cause i treasure our relationship real much...... *long text msg, something personal*......... I eel loved AGAIN, u made me love u even deeper. I tknk. I tknk saket hati, i pnat. I nak luperkan, tpi susah. Farhan even told me, u really love me so much. But why cnt u just show it to me? Why? It really hurts. Even after so long of crying for days nw, this little msg cld even made my tears roll down my cheek. I try to go on. I try to treat u as a friend, but its hard to accpet u as a friend.Its really hard, smetimes i think that i dnt event wanna befriend with u, just to clear my minds. Im loving u, still. Its up to u nk rply."

"I feel d same way too...but nvrmind,its ol over....i dowan to hurt u more...we'll tok again sumdae"

Idiot.

So I'm currently in the status of single but not available thingy. Hell yeah. But I'm not quite happy with it cause it's a little to sudden to accpet the fact that i'm already single after months of relationship with him. Yeah, it's time he needs a break and cool himself down and think over again. Like wtf? Why does it have to be him, cooling down? Sigh.. Sucky, very sucky. So before all this text messages were exchanged and more. I head down Fernvale on monday and watched the boys play takraw. So that night after days of missing, I saw him. Mcm wow kan? -__- So he was being so arrogant, ibarat macam aku ni tkder. Mcm sial. Lol! So to hall back and and the boys and myself played taiti and chatted. Suppose to be back home walking with Huda, I sat next to him and I talked to him for a little while. We end up arguing with each other. And one thing, I really hope the incident that has happen, won't happen. But it did.
Farhan wanted to send me home but I insist on staying until I could apologise to him face to face. And say whatever I want to say. Farhan even told Ajan to pass twenty bucks to me just to go home. Thanks alot, abg:) Then after the sun rises up I head down to his crib and so call 'spend time' together. The spending time together made me fall for you even deeper. Whats with that? And you too. And when I asked you something, you answered it the same as I said it to you. I'm confused with you. Okay, I just suddenly feel that I don't feel like writing down the rest. And yes.

"u tk rase bangge ker? u buat laki yg bkn dayus, jadi dayus?"
"u bkn jantan dayus, you're just fighting for your right, thats all:)"
*hugs tightly & tears roll down*

And it really really hurts me seeing Iyllia and my bestfriend, Deedee, cry.
:'(

So at night watch the boys play soccer and this time ribot siot turon, haha! I follow Farhan to Punggol the ride back to Fernvale and he send me home. And I met the boys again after they came back from Johor around 2plus and slack for a little while and home. Suppose to be swimming today, but it seems that they wanna play takraw I think.

i need shower, ciao!

23.

2009-02-16T15:43:00.002+08:00

1. Single, taken or crushing? I feel different.
2. Are you happy with your life now? pretty much.
3. When you meet the right person, will you fall for him/her fast? it depends.
4. Have you had your heart broken? go on and read my post.
5. Do you believe there are circumstances where cheating love is acceptable? sometimes.
6. Would you talk to someone back if he/she cheats on you? yes.
7. Have you talk to another person about marriage before? yes.
8. Do you want children? yeah, why not.
9. How many? 1 or 2? 4 if possible.
10. Would you consider adoption? hmmm, im not sure.
11. If someone likes you right now, what do you think to let you know how him/her feelings? tell me.
12. Do you enjoy getting into relationship? i can't say enjoy. it doesn't matter if you're going steady or nt, as long as he loves you and you love him, that will be fine:)
13. Be honest. What did you and your ex did? we share hugs, kisses.
14. Do you believe in love at first sight? yes.
15. Are you romantic? i think i am, haha!
16. Do you believe you can change someone? yes, caused i changed someone in the past and he is still remaining the same, not iyllia though.
17. If you could marry somewhere, where would it be? italy, hoho!
18. Do you easily give in when you're fighting? most of the time im the one giving in.
19. Do you have feelings for someone right now? complicated.
20. Have you ever wish you could have someone but you messed it up? yes, i did it once. but accident, i guess haha.
21. Have you broken a heart? yes.
22. On the day if your best friend fall in love with he/she that you are deeply in love with. my bestfriend gave him up to me. she sacrifice her love though.
23. Are you missing someone right now? i miss alot of people. i miss mummy, i miss my dad, i miss my friends, my mates and of course the guy that have been missing for a while now.

what a luck.

even the littlest thing it could hurt someone, but why not this?

2009-02-16T14:54:00.003+08:00

I'm at home, changed into a new blog skin. I'm bored, very very bored, bored to death. And Haziq is busy playing games. Haha. I really got nothing to blog about. Okay. So eventually Farhan wanted to meet me up since he got something to talk about. Like seriously I have no idea. I guess its about school.

Someone even told me something,
"Lau adk syg org tu deeply, it wun fade away.."

I guess I said something wrong. The main thing here is he's unlike him. He would usually call me up asking this and that. But then he's been keeping quiet for three days now, so yeah. I think I need to make a decision here and he does too. I just can't simply keep quiet. I just need reasons. Surely he have his own reason right? And I've been feeling restless this days. And whoever who hates me, would confirm be laughing his/her ass off. I wouldn't admit this is the relationship I wanted.

I'm just yearning for the old us.
the YOU who would call me up asking me such questions and put down the phone.
the YOU who would want to meet me and say that you really misses me much.
the YOU who show care and concern.
the YOU who would shower me love.
the YOU who would even treat me nicely even when I disobey and throw you attitudes.
the YOU who would pamper me. (& im spoilt)
the YOU who would defend me when you fought with someone(s) over such matters.
the YOU who would never fail to make me smile and be happy.
&
the YOU who build me up in the first place after so long of unhappy past.

You give me wonders. I have no words to describe it actually. I just miss that simple few things, that's all. I just need your reason, that's all I'm asking for. Whatever it is, I'm not expecting you to return to your old lifestyle, and you even said that you changed just because of me. And I mark your words. I still remember it. I believe it. And you even said something about people around you in the past, I still remember it.

Forget about it, I just need get myself clean now.
Having dinner with Wan later on at Tampines, if I have the appetite.
ciao homies!

sentosa & valentines:)

2009-02-15T03:07:00.005+08:00

So Valentines was spent at Sentosa with the mates and Zura & Leha's Boon Lay friends. I so love my Valentines. Hahaha! The day was great, the company was great, the weather was great, the 'atmosphere' was extremely great. Lol! So whats the big deal if one boyfriend's get jealous of it? Fuck it. So, I woke up pretty early around 10plus? Yeah, got myself ready and packed up my stuff and more. Suppose to meet the mates at 12plus. But then, pukol 12 baru aku kluar rumah. Met up with Zura and Leha and train ride and meet their friends at Palawan Beach. They were already happily playing soccer i think, hah! Waited for the mates to reach at the beach, had lunch first with their friends. Changed. We had Volleyball games, ya the so call 'racist' match, whatever ehk Nas. Hahah! Padehal padehal.

And not to forget my classmate, Nick. Punyer lah cute. And the mates especially Nas and Farhan punyer lah perangai babi! Hantam ajek perangai babi ker paper. Kacau aku! Sial btol. Hahaha! Ya like....,
"Nick come sit here."
"Nick, come here lah with me."
"Nick come here lah stand beside linsih."
Like wtf? Yang mangkok aku, dengan dier dier skali uh! HEE!

Had dinner with the mates and made a move by 9plus back to Vivo meet up with Zura and her friends. I had fun with them alot!! Really, I do. And common lah, just say that I'm the Queen. The 100, was very yucky. It sucks alot!! Talked cock, had countless rounds of taiti and blah blah blah. And eventually I did said something to someone tapi kan, dier kadang2 mintak kene sepak jek muker. Naseb baek aku buat salah ngan kao, kalau tak aku dah sepak lah sial muker kao! Pukimak. Thanks to Hyril for accompanying me through messages till I reached home. And my tan lines are sexy, haha! I also notice that I took alot of pictures with that asshole, Hyril! -__- Hahaha.

I've changed my topic.

Sometimes I feel like I don't even have a boyfriend. Yeah, like there's no Iyllia Nazry in my life. Like really. I'm FUCKING changing! Right? Oh PMS agaknyer uh! Knnbcc. I may be FUCKING rude to you. I say sorry once, it's up to you to FUCKING accept it or not. Suker hati uh kao nak terimer ker tak. I don't say sorry thousand of times cause I know in future I would definitely repeat it again and again and again, until I, MYSELF change my FUCKING ATTITUDE TOWRADS YOU! Right? And yes, something very dissapointing but oh well I better keep it to my FUCKING self. Because when I say something mesti ader jek lah ehk, kao bebual tu bebual ni, buat perangai ni sumer. -____- perangai pompuan.
And I notice something, biler gadoh ke PAPER LAH ehk, mesti carek orang yang samer. Wtf?!! Lol!
And Iyllia, if you ever feel like you don't even have a girlfriend and/or maybe don't feel like loving me, go ahead and say it to my face.

Oh yes, I need to replace my M.A.C ricepaper shadow, M.A.C sheer blush, M.A.C eyeliner, dozens of eyebrow pencils, face shop nail polish in hot red and green ASAP! It's running out soon. Damn. I'm very tired. I need make up remover, I need a cup of ice water, I need rest and I need sleep.

PMS mode, sucks.
ciao!

2009-02-13T14:56:00.008+08:00

Just a very short post.
Oh yes, Friday the 13th. Hahaha, it's a big deal, I THINK. Just be extra careful.

So I've been missing alot of things lately. And I'll try to put it in a random order. We celebrated Farhan's birthday very cute tao satu-satu. We were like standing infront of his house and when he opens his door member dah tersengeh2. And they all sing the birthday song pretty loud, haha. Okay lah, haha. Made a move and train all they to Raffles and meet Ajan up. Cab ride to China St. and saw their friends and this guy who doesn't know that there will be a party at Pavillion until he came asking me and member pegi jugek. Oh Naqib, haha!
Went in by twelve plus and soooo party at the Pavillion was fun except for the part yang baru baru nak start. Macam taik. Because why? My head kena banged by this very thick besi. And my head hurts real much. Took a smoke slack outside with the babygirls and bought Amsterdam. And to my surprise the drink cost very cheap. Lol! Didn't expect what. Went in again by two this time. And I so love this girls of mine. We were all sweating and having fun, I think. After the party and mostly all of the party animals sat outside talking this and that. And we sat down and Deedee talked with his friends while the rest do their own things. They were super tired. Made a move and walk to Clarke Quay.
Slack and fill up my stomach. Cab ride home. And was very very very shagged. And something happen and I remembered it till I had reached home. I did said that I'll be taking the bus with babylovee and I didn't even remember at that point of time and I took the cab home. And yes, I 'paitao' him! Like wtf? I can't even remember a single thing. And babylovee took the bus home ALONE while the rest took a different bus home. I feel very bad. But really uh. Aiyoy, my bad.
So the last few days I've been spending times with the boys and girls and Fernvale. And have been going to babylovee's crib just to spend time together. And the X-Men that we watched together, kao memekak. Nak tengok diam diam ajek uh! LOL! Padehal aku yang biseng.
And I can't remember most of the things uh.

So school was okay lah. Since I had finish my presentation. So here it is.

And yes, for yesterday's Speak Carnival at my schoo I met my babygirls. I miss them freaking much and my highschool sweetheart, LOL! Poh Seng.

Here's the pictures of two weeks back. The sleep over at Zura's.

Not to forget, I receive another birthday gift from my aunts. Cantek, you know.

Sentosa tomorrow with the mates and yes Nick, the very cute guy in my class and Farhan have been pestering me to head down Sentosa with them tomorrow. So yeah!
And maybe I'll be following Zura to Yayat's family pit, I guess. At night. So tomorrow whole day out. Confirm tiring. What do I care.

& I SOOOO CAN'T WAIT FOR ROMP 4 THIS 15TH MARCH @ ZOUK!! HELL YEAH!!!
will update pretty soon.
Ciao!

2009-02-06T17:08:00.004+08:00

I can't wait for tonight's party!! Pavillion here I come baybeh! Heh! Heh!
&&&&

he's really cute here! lol!

Happy 19th Birthday to

Farhan Baktee!!

Ily bro.
=)

I need shower and I need something to wear tonight! Ladylike perhaps? And we're celebrating Farhan's 19th at Fernvale and I just can't write what's tonight plan here. I'll update soon people. And lovee's being really irritating nowadays, haha. I love you potpot.

2009-02-03T15:00:00.008+08:00

26th January, I sticked myself at home. cause i was plain tired from going out every single day. so television all the way and yeah, i was bored. the boys did text me up whether im heading fernvale or not, but i was too tired. so eventually when the clock strike midnight it will be my birthdate on the day itself. and lovee, farhan and haziq was being so sweet that they came down to my place just to surprised me with something. at 12.31am and guess what? they sang me a birthday song really loudly infront of the carpark which my windows were facing. and i think my family heard it. and i guess the people around heard it too. lol! and haziq and farhan surprised me with a Touch perfume by Burberry. whatever it is to me, they did something sweet which i appreciate it alot. and they are really cute. i love you guys.

macam cute gitu. haha dengan hidung besar dier.

27th January, another year older. so eventually lovee came up with a plan to Sentosa but it was a last minute change. we were like changing plans each time we came up with something. so this year i didn't think of having such a wonderful celebration cause i'm 17. yes, unlike i'm 16. so cab ride to fernvale and meet the boys up and all. and i didn't expect mamat, from bedok came down fernvale hurriedly just to celebrate my birthday. heh! so sat for a while and we made a move. so bus ride and around ehub for a while. bought chickens from i can't remember what was the shop called. heh! then waited for them while mamat, afiq and myself were happily muching on those popcorn chickens and root beer. haha. so slack at the park and off to the warung and had dinner. then diyanah, ajan reached and someone unexpected came which is my bestfriend Deedee and his girlfriend Faezah. i didn't expect that he would turn up cause the day before he told me that he had some family problems. i was shocked, really shocked, haha. and while we were having dinner, lovee accidentally spilt something. "duet cake, duet cake." and he stared at me and member mangkok! he's reaction was hilarious. and at that point of time, i know that i would have a birthday cake. hahaha! so off to ehub and we played bowling. and i was losing. and something UNEXPECTED happened again! i was watching them playing bowling and suddenly zura and leha was behind me with the cake on zura's hand and the boys and girls were around me singing in the alley LOUDLY! i bounced a little bit from my chair, haha. bounced ehk.
as you can see, these people which i knew for only nearly 10 months and these bunch of people has been really great to me. really, i swear. i really do appreciate you guys alot for all this while, which you guys had helped me on, no matter how big or how small it is. from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

and oh yes, thanks for the...

burberry perfume. - farhan&haziq
adidas sling bag. - diyanah
dickies bagpack. - kakrod&bobby
and a really really cute top. - mamat&ajan

"sayang jangan luper i punyer tiffinay&co. i mesti tunggu punyer. haha. btol tak maen2."
-linsih

so last friday on the 30th, Uncle Chong was giving us a treat at Thohirah at jalan kayu. and the fooda were great. and it was alot too. haha, thanks uncle chong. then ride to hougang to buy some ciggies with farhan, mira, lovee and zamir. then back to hall. made a move by 10 plus and bus ride to downtown to diyanah's chalet. and thanks for inviting babe:) the night was okay cause i vomitted out what i ate after i had drink 3 big plastic cups of vodka's and a little little mix of sprite. i don't even know why i vomitted. damn. i took a nap and woke up and join the boys. around 6am we made a move and bus ride home. and something terrible, okay i wouldn't say terrible something funny happened.
woke up around 3pm which was on the 31st and got myself ready since my family and my aunt and uncle were heading to simpang bedok for dinner. but then mummy wanted to head down newton for seafood. what a feast. lol. wanted to head down to diyanah's chalet that night since the boys were heading to her chalet after they went to city hall and was left by their friends.

1st February, i woke pretty early though. took a shower and get myself ready and off to diyanah's chalet. met lovee up and had lunch with him. slack with him and made a move around two hours later. to fernvale and slack with the boys and all. had dinner, thanks lovee for the treat. and the running here and there just to watch the chingay parade was hilarious. macam orang giler. slakc slack slack and head off to lovee's crib. spent the night at his crib. and if i could ever slap him, i would do it long ago. cakap jek nak pegi appeal, tapi tak appeal2 pon. he says that he wanna try his luck to go for mechatronics at macpherson. heh! skali member dapat masok dah samer skolah ngan aku, dah samer course ngan deedee. hahah deedee had appeal for mechatronics at macpherson.
and the night later the boys played soccer and after soccer we played rounders. punyer lah kelakar.

Pictures two months back.

With Nikon D70.will update more.
i need to finish of my presentation soon.
ciao!

2009-01-30T00:28:00.004+08:00

Happy 17th to Linsih,
of course.

& Happy Birthday to my dearest buddy, Poh Seng!
My hotstuff! Lol!

I'll update soon about my birthday celebration, school and more. And to Fernvale Legacy, you guys know who you are are. Thanks for making my 17th the sweetest. Can be compared to my 16th! Hahaha! But whatever it is I can't forget my sweet sixteen baybeh! Lol!

And to Iyllia Nazry. It isn't so hard to say that NOW, you're just treating 'someone' just like your sibs. And not more than that.

And yes! Vote for me! Hahah. It's my little class though.

http://www.digital-4ever.blogspot.com

Will update. I need sleep and I got school at nine later on, ciao!

sweet:)

2009-01-25T15:40:00.012+08:00

Here's my class photo. My first day some more.

diyana:)

Pardon me, I can't actually remember much things that happen lately. But I know alot of things happen. And sorry for the MIA-ing.

18th Jan
Last Friday plan a mini celebration for my dearest Diyana. Well, it's been long since we last met her up. Bought a mini cake and the mini celebration went pretty well. An the boys were really noisy. She loves it:) Slack till morning. Make a move by six plus and cab ride home. Shower and got ready for school. First day of school was okay. And the following days of school was pretty okay except for the fact that I'm closer with my male classmates than my females. I love this bunch of guys really much:) They're cute:) I mean their reaction and stuff. So lessons has been quite okay except that my first presentation with the mates and me, I did badly. But oh well Mr Vince did said we present pretty well, but were not organized. But still, I did bad. Boohoo! So usually what I did after school was to head down lovee's crib and spend a little time with him.
Been going to Fernvale with Haziq since he would kindly wait for me after school, heh! Been taking cabs, for the third time in one week straight. Alah nak buat hal besar dekat toilet mesti uh cab. Kan Haziq? Lol! And so by doing that after school each day I would reach half an hour past midnight. Tiring, but oh well.
Thursday nearly all of us were there slacking. Abg(iyllia's bro) and his girfriend, Ita was there too. Were playing card games and all. Misteri jam 12 till one plus. Thanks baby for the cash. And cab ride home.
Friday, I paitao Haziq and Farhan for car servicing? I guess? I can't remember. So they both went for car servicing and then my brother was being kind enough to fetch me at my place. Since I told him I was bored. But before that here's the conversation between me and him.

F: "U love me?"
L: "Yes, very very much. Why?"
F: "How much? *then he talks about school*
L: "I woke up late. Very much. Ily as much as i love iyllia. N i didnt expect to have a brother who shows care n concern. Love. &lend me ears whenever i have probs."
F: "K i fetch u. Im so touch."
L: "Huh? Fetch me? Then go whr? Im really sorry if ive ever made u angry or either sad. :("
F: "No lah. U always make me happy."
L: "Thanks alot abg. I love you very very much:)"
F: "Me too. Love u loads."

The night together with Zamir just the two of us was full of ups and downs, joy and much more. I didn't expect the night to be such a bored one. But what I know not even once he had made me sad, unhappy and more. He's a really good friend though. So we kill the time by talking about our past and more. And our past was such a really sad ones. Mostly are relationships. And one more think, I did said to him. "Kalau kao raser mcm nak nanges, nanges ajek. Tkmo simpan2." He continued his stories and tears roll down his cheeks. I was on bad terms with lovee on that particular day.

Iyllia: "Sori k bb?eventho im harsh to u but deep dwn inside,i love u so much...alk cpt la..."
Linsih: "Same goes to me. Deep down i still love u much too........"
*tears roll down*

lol.

And so yesterday which was Saturday. Actual plan was to meet the mates, yes my classmates at town around four plus. But ending up I met them around six plus. But they do waited for me:) Thanks alot guys. There's around nine to ten guys and I'm the only girl there. But well, I did enjoyed myself with them even if it's only for a few hours. Around town and played pool. And Deedee came and meet us up at Parklane. Around Parklane in finding of the orgasm shop. Then walk and bus ride to Marine Parade. In the bus we were like talking non-stop. About OUR friendships. Yes, me, him, iyllia, ajan and mamat. The five of us. As usual. Then walked to East Coast and met lovee up. Smoked and off to meet his cousins and family.
And the night with his family and cousins was a REALLY GREAT one. I didn't come to think of it that I would enjoy it real much surrounded with his cute little cousins. They're really cute. Kene dengan budak kecik. He was calling me out. "Ehk gemok!" And his little cousin, Dilah, said something."Panggel org gemok, dier sendiri gemok!" Cute lah.
And I was sitting exactly infront of his aunty and she was sitting on a chair, a small one. We were laughing the night away and one thing, she kept touching my back macam 'terpegang'.Hahah, I don't know how to describe it. Aku dah lah pakai sexyback. Tahan aku tutop dengan rambot. Games night till morning was fun. I enjoyed it real much. And one more, okay my last k. Lovee's elder sis reaction was really hilarious! The part where we played 007 and lovee's cousins 'banged' her. Lol! They were laughing all over the place.
Soon after most were already tired me, lovee and Dee sat at a bench infornt of a shop and they talked about this and that. Me and Dee made a move by six since we were already tired. Cab ride home did this and that and bed.

So tomorrow's plan shall be to East Coast for a family gathering. And my dearest aunty plan to celebrate my birthday in advance. Hehe! Gerek keper? LOL!

cute kan dier? muackz muackz.

Okay, I wanna off.
Will update pretty pretty soon.
2 more days to my 17th. Girl lagik!

&& Wahyudi
sighhhhhhhhhh. Jatoh boy.

2009-01-18T19:33:00.005+08:00

macam Fahrin Ahmad kan??

Last Friday I met Haziq up in 70 and bus ride all the way to ITE Macpherson. So write downs things and stuff. Then we took 28 to Toa Payoh and bought some snacks from Mr Bean, Burger King and our drinks. Then took 163 all the way to Fernvale. We DO talk alot!! I didn't expect that we talk like there's no tomorrow. And dier punyer action. Pasal citer tumbok, really funny. It's an inside joke btw, heh! Slack with the boys and we take turns turning on the taps for the kids since the kids were playing water rocket? Wtf? Lol. Dee came but for that night we were simply out of plans.
So yesterday, it was Saturday. Lovee had came up with a plan. Supposingly we were going Vivo, just the two of us. But then Farhan, Mira, Wan, Ajan and Farhan's friends were at town. Met up lovee around Wisma all and made our way to Far East to meet them up. And ader lah ehk part yang buat orang marah. I shall not dwell on it. So dee came down and we slack all the way. Took bus to City Hall and wanted to buy drinks then the shop were closed. So made our way to Lorong and walked non-stop. They were searching for Bombay Sapphire but not to avail and they bought Bacardi Superior. Cab to Bedok and fetch Mamat and off to Fernvale.
They drink all the way till morning and member sumer dah tak btol. Dah lah muntah macam tap air, sial btol. Nak jage pon aku malas. But then fiker-fiker balek kesian pulak. I took care of Deedee. We took a walk and then sat down and gave him a massage on his forehead and he felt a little bit better. Then he was like,"pegi tengok naz." I was like, "kalau orang dah macam gitu, nak tengok buat aper kan?" I quickly wipe away tose tears and hold Dee's hand and walk back.
"Sorry tao u." Maybe he notice it maybe he did not. I wipe it away again.
There's alot more. The sun nearly rises up and I took a cab home. Was really shagged and busted from the walk at Lorong. Eeee. Geli aku!
And on top of that I should have gone Vivo with lovee and spend the time just the two of us. Confirm the day yesterday shouldn't be so fucked up. Right sweetheart?
And happy 4 years friendship Fadhly. I wonder what would happen if the two of us were still together. It should have been our four years annisversary. Hahaha, tk blh tk blh. Damn.

"I maki2 pn ttp i syg u seh bb....im sori k..."

"Tkmo sdih2 k syg....Da pai umah g tdo k...I tau u pnat...Lau bleh nati ptg trn...Cyg u bnyk2...."

"Make sure dah cuci kaki, bacer doa sbelom tdo. Rest well. N most probably i trn fnvl, see how. Love ya real much babe! :)"

So will be heading off and meet the boys, will update more.
Fuck the parental control for my blog. Sial.

& tomorrow will be the first day of school. Confirm Iyllia raser risau punyer heh!

2009-01-16T10:21:00.002+08:00

I got alot of things to write down. And FUCK LTA & MANPOWER!! Really it sucks alot.
So yesterday I end work early, 3 sharp since I was having a tiff with my supervisor. She sucks alot. She's accusing me alot of things from our conversation yesterday. She is the one who heard differently and I've been accussed by just like that. Come on lah, Ive realised that I do need to go to school. It's my future. Yes, I know it's too late for all of this(cause I signed a contract with th company and part palen mepek kalau tak kene bayar samapi $5000,like WTF?) but it's all sudden. The school gave me a call and asked me to come for a test. So I can't possibly reject the offer cause I know there won't be any place for me when I entered ITE for April Intake. Shit.

Suppose to be in school today since I passed my drawing test. The test was fucking hard!! But oh well, I get through it, it's good enough for me:) So I'll be making my way to the school later on paying the school fees all and maybe uniforms too. And about work, it sucks alot. I thought of working with lovee and Zamir, SATS. Since lovee has been pestering me to work at his place cause his working place was a fun one to be with and great people around. Maybe I should consider working there after February.

I've made my way to Fernvale yesterday since I end work early and got no place in mind to go too and no plan at all. Yesterday was a fun. Disturbing, playing pranks on Bob cums Zul. Nak step Roy, cb. Lol! And sooo it's been so long since I've last met lovee and Zamir. I miss them real much. And the last two day tel conversation wtih lovee sucky sia. You're girlfriend is a musibat. Bitch. Namind, I apologised to him already. Sigh!! -_- But yesterday convo was really cute, I miss you, dang!

And

Happy Belated 17th Samantha!
Babe, meet me up soon.
I miss bitching with you and
a whole lot more,
I miss you:)

2009-01-14T01:14:00.003+08:00

Work has been really tiring actually. But for the last 5, sorry. For the last 3 days work was really hilarious. Really, me and my patner cums my school mate cums my senior! Were laughing here and there. About this and that. And guess what? My patner, Dhidi told me something about what happen at the interchange just now. An old auntie get down the bus and she squat near the stairs pull down her shorts and undergarment, yes PANTIE! And pee. I was like 15 to 20 mins late. So disgusting, dengar jek, dah geli aper tah tengok. And Dhidi said that bulu tebal sumer nampak. Confirm kekek punyer. And this work right, the bond between my school mate, macam dah lamer gitu together. Heh! And Vivian, the person yang balek slalu tangan penat, so cute and pretty. Oh she's from China. And member tak suker Singapore pasal orang orang Singapore. Tak tahu asal, namind lah. At least she's nice.

Suppose to be 5 working days but I took a off day last Sunday cause I was having fever and flu. So I head down fernvale and met the boys up. Over to lovee's crib and I woke up late, 7am. Some more I start work at 12. And dier punyer paitao kan, macam nak jotos-jotos jek kepaler dier. Naseb baek aku baek hati, aku cakap sorry tao! Spend time skejap then sleep. Okay lah. So tomorrow, I'm off. And I need to make a trip to Macpherson for a drawing test. I really hope I pass the test. Some more carry a portfolio here and there. Alamak. So wish me super good lucks!!
I sooooo don't get this shit.

,,,,,,,,: fuck you
10 January 2009, 23:08
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linsih: wtf? dont come discriminating me, for god sake.
11 January 2009, 18:56
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,,,,: you syupid minah rep
12 January 2009, 02:40
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What the fuck do you want from me? Come on I don't even know you and you come here tagging me I'm a minah rep? Like fuck? Do you even know me? And kalau yer pon kao dah kenal aku untok braper tahun, kenal aku luar dalam than you can call me that. But hell no, I don't think I'm a minah rep, CAUSE I'M NOT EVEN ONE! Damn, get a life, ass. And please don't come judging me through my blog. I may curse here and there, come one every body do curse, so are you. SYUPID BTOL! Lol! I need sleep, to lovee's crib tomorrow and Macpherson here I come, Insyaallah:)

Gambar muker busyok!

I miss Naz, hah!
Gd night.

&& yes yes, I'm not working on the 27th! Wooohooo! Lol!

2009-01-11T19:01:00.003+08:00

1. Fuck the windows parental control on the computer lah ehk. It's fucking irritating.

2. Don't come tagging me saying, 'fuck you' or whatsoever. I won't entertain those kind of nonsense. No use saying vulgarities on me:)

3. Tiring, work of course.

4. Restless, sleepless night.

5. I need spa, wait till the end of the month.

6. Back aching, legs hurting.

7. I miss Iyllia, the boys and girls so much.

So most probably I'll be heading down Fernvale today and meeting them up. I'm suppose to be working today, but I took a day off since I was having fever and flu. And I'm going to the doctor tomorrow! For an MC and medicines. Maybe lovee will be accompanying me to the doc tomorrow since he promised me to accompany me. And while I was watching tv, aleh aleh buddy aku kluar tv uh. REC! Tapi tak nampak muker, heh! My girlfriend lah, Shazan. Talks on 'drinking'. So I need shower now, will update soon. And I can't wait for the end of the month and yes, I need to get someone something for someting. And I don't think I'll be having such a sweet 17th birthday cause I'm fucking working! Damn:(

2009-01-07T17:00:00.005+08:00

The text message from haziq after me telling I won't be coming down to his school.
"Siol ar. Aku da announcement siol. Aku bilang semue org adek aku dtg. Hahaha."
Cute kan? Tahu:)

zeek: aku tadi nanges pat toilet. cos kene paitao.
7 January 2009, 16:39
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Hahahaha. So MAYBE another day to spend time with my love ones and lovee of course cause by Friday I'll be starting working.

I should bear with it since the project end date will be on the 28th Feb. So I'll be working 6 days per week, off days only on Wednesday. Hari tak handsome siot. From 12pm to 9pm. And a lunch break for an hour. And I so think that I won't be spending much time with the boys and girls.

*sobs*

LTA

2009-01-07T03:54:00.006+08:00

Soooo Sunday was I can't remember how I spent it. Last Monday I met Leha up at Tanjong Pagar for a job interview. And it was pretty okay. And working under LTA! -_- And this 'Carine' woman was nice and soooo love complimenting on people, lol. Oh yeah, I'm starting working soon as a customer service personnel, which is this Friday. Same goes to Zura, Leha and Deedee. And my stupid OFF DAY will be only on Wednesday! -___- And my birthday falls on the 27th which is on Tuesday! More -__- SIAN! Takper. And each of us get different station. Mine is Woodlands, Zura and Leha, Hougang while Dee gets Ang Mo Kio! Laen kali pilih ADMI LA!! Had dinner at Tampines with Zura and Leha and off to Fernvale.
Head down Fernvale after the interview and spend time with the boys. Around midnight head off to lovee's crib. And kakak dier punyer percakapan sungguh terkejut sekali, and lovee's know hows my reaction is. So we watched 'Mohabatein'(i lovee the movie, lol!) and Ajan doesn't appreciate the movie because of the subtitles, mepek sak Jan! Supposingly yesterday was it's training for the job! And I didn't make myself present, because I was too lazy and a little bit sick. I mean I was having flu, because of his fan and the room temperature in his room was pretty cold. Spend my time with lovee all the way. I love it:) Thanks for spending the night, the morning and the evening with me! And I soooo lovee this part, tapi ader sket kekek uh. Bukan kekek macam cute gitu. Hahaha! Had shower and meet the boys as usual. And lovee was at home cleaning, I mean vacuuming his house. Macam pahan, sumbat bende asal boleh jek! The boys had soccer and me revising on the paper that Dee gave to me.
And now I'm waiting for lovee to call me up and currently I'm chatting with Harris. Member nak masok NS lah. Hahahaha! Kesian! Lovee and the boys pegi pancheng lah. And for the second time apeealing for the course at ITE is sucky! It sucks alot! And I'm fucking appealing for the thrid time now! Like fuck! And lovee's application was unsuccessful too. And member appeal office dekat Bishan. Sialan btol, lol! Standby jek uh terpekik terlolong nanti! I think most probably I'm getting April Intake. Macam taik. Agaknyer lah tu.
And the phone call from Zura was really shocking! Kawan Yayat rindu aku? Aper citer? Oh that friend of his is so call, 'into me'. Tak tahu aper yang menarik perhatian dier. Chey!

And lovee pester me to cute my nails short. Girls with shorts nails looks soooo....aiyer.

:)

2009-01-03T00:10:00.009+08:00

i love this:)

I spent Friday just at home. So eventually lovee head down my place. Before that he head down to the aiport with Zamir since he's making his airport pass. He's starting working at SATS soon. Then he made his way from the airport to Admiralty and my crib. Spend quality time and fun together. We had dinner and Iyllia punyer lah jahat, "mcm mane tk gmok!" Ader lah citer sebalek nyer. Ehk? Send him off to the bus stop and me head off home.
So that's it:)
And story about him going to the wet market was really cute.

MAYBE, Hajah Maimunah tomorrow with lovee. Teringin nak makan nasi padang and him nasi rawan! Heh! Heh!

And lovee look pretty hot with his eyebrow pierced back.

new year has come in.

2009-01-01T20:24:00.004+08:00

So the last two days of 2008, I met up with the girls and boys at Hougang. And lovee was there. After the chalet and stuff, he was being kind enough to drop down Hougang just to meet me up:) So met up with Zura, Leha, Zamir and lovee. They had their lunch, talk about this and that and off to Fernvale. So that night slack with the boys all.

So on the 31st was supposingly to meet up with the boys around four, but then I reached around five coming to six. I need to work on my punctuality, really. Slack for a while and then made a move by seven plus. Bus ride to Downtown and then we had dinner at McDonalds. Soon we head off to the beach we played taiti, Amsterdam and a lil bit of Vodka's. And Ajan's aunties and his cousins were really great. So then Mamat and Linda reached and lovee's friends came along. We made move and then after the carpark thingy most of us were seperated. And I countodown-ed with someone UNEXPECTED, Yayat. Kakak's so call 'lovee'. I'm so sorry baby, I've missed me chance with you counting down to the new year. So thanks to Yat for going through with me through the most irritating part of my life, the passing through people and people leaning on you, toughing you here and there. Cut que to Wan's place. Then entered D'marquee.

So the night at D'Marquee and the party was fun. Saw Rahman, the birthday boy, Ihsan, Diy and alot more. And I didn't expect to meet Anand and Ady at Downtown. Izzat wasn't there though, but I wasn't finding for him, I was finding for Harris, my bussiness rival. Hahah! I enjoyed this year countdown. And thanks baby for the new year kiss, lol. Then sat along Cheers and then waited for Wan then off to the carpark. Lorry and ride to East Coast since we're meeting Ajan and his cousins there. Thanks to Zamir's dad for the ride. Slack at East Coast, taiti, 'chapchilichap' or 'chopchilichop' I also don't know, haha. Then Deedee came with his girlfriend and his friends. Then ride again to nearly after Bedok Jetty. Then lovee, myslf, Ajan and his Diyana sat along the waterbreaker. And diorang dudok jauh dari kiter, hmmphh.

So morning with lovee was fun, I love it alot. Thanks alot baby for the night! And the 'aerolpane' thingy, cute tao kiter! Heh! Then ride to Hougang send off Ajan's aunties and cousins. Oh it was ride by Ajan's cuz, Wandi. Then to Fernvale. Woohoo, shagged. We had breakfast and and the mornign breakfast was really hilarious!!! 'OUR' old.In the bus too with Nana. Punyer lah saket perot!! Asek ketawer ajek!!

Supposingly today I should be heading down Sembawang for the family gathering but I was too sleepy and shagged after a night of fun! Now mummy is at Expo, :( tkper.

And my phone tertinggal dekat Iyllia, haiyo! Ingatkan hilang. Btw pictures will be up soon.
Happy 2009 people!

6 more days to results.
17 more days to Nana's 18th.
22 more days to chalet. ( I'm not sure whether I would wanna have a chalet or not.)
26 more days to my 17th.

Heh! heh!

2008 is memories!

a new year coming in.

2008-12-29T03:29:00.008+08:00

Lovee's away for three days. He's in town, but he's away to his friends chalet. And being a good girlfriend, I'm sticking at home doing prolly, nothing. Actually, there is. Heh! And soooo, I was being honest with lovee yesterday. What am I gonna do for this year countdown and blah blah blah. And so he wasn't quite 'happy' about it. What to do. Okay, today post shall be about THIS year.

So 2008 wasn't a good year though. But still, memories are kept.

School.
It was okay lah. Not quite fun, but still it wasn't bad though. This year I've not been attending school pretty much. I skip school hundreds of times. And I've not been attentive in Volleyball.
I miss the P.E Sessions I had with classmates when there's always captains ball, haha!
I love that game.
I miss sitting in the class making noise with the mates.
I miss throwing papers here and there.
I miss messing up the classroom.
I miss having breakfast at the canteen with the girls.
I miss eating the fish fillet, haha. (the popular fish fillet, which ppl would queue up for)
I miss eating the laksa.
I miss having to go back late in the evening due to volleyball.
I miss E.O.A lesson in the class, fyi. Cause Mr Ratish would crack jokes here and there.
And I sooooooo hate maths lesson!! There's loads of it.

Friendship.
Sooo this year I started being close with Deedee. I know Deedee through the ex boyfriend. It was two years back. So then, I swear this year I've made alot of new friends. And these friends are extremely great! And I soooo love them. And they love me too, haha! So I started hanging out with the Fernvale Legacy. So there is lovee, Ajan, Mamat, Farhan, Zura, Leha, Zamir, Afiq, Haziq, Bob, Aie, Abg, Mael, John, Fawwaz, Mira, Wan and Faz. Ader kenal macam gitu gitu ajek. So few months past, we started to have this bond which I think it could last long. I really hope so. To those you know who you are. I really hope the friendship between us would last till eternity, chey! haha! I love you all, my brothers and sisters. (macam sound so minah gitu, but namind)

Relationship.
Early 2008 I was dating Alif. The guy whom I met at Sentosa, lol. It's a long story. So we dated for around three months and WE go our seperate ways. I'm not sure about his reasons. But I'm pretty sure whats mine. Now then I've realised I started partying so much until I'm so sick and tired of schools and only wanting to enjoy outside. Yeah. Was partying at Zouk, saw Deedee. And he says that he was with the rest. Dier punyer kwn tamp and budak fernvale. So I didn't even saw them. I was drunk, damn. Then met up with Deedee and the rest at Boat Quay. Was with long-time-no-see hotstuff, Samantha. That was the first time I met lovee, Ajan, Azmi and Mamat. Hahahah! Fiker2 balek, kekek uh. In the club (& outside), Ajan was sooo way interested in me, and I soooo don't like him at all. And while was chilling outside, the were chit-chatting. And I swear to god, I don't even like lovee at all. Cumer bebual macam gitu gitu ajek. And mulot dier macam pantart ayam!
A few months pass, I was like having a so call 'war' with this someone. And in the first place, he should have told me that he's with you. He shouldn't be shutting his mouth. So skip that part. First four months of arguing with him and someone. And then into relationships with him and then me asking for a break-up. Then we started to reconcile back due to his misunderstandings of feelings and me, I just can't forget about him. So till now, it's like already eight months of knowing him. Btw people, don't like "wah only eight months jek, belom setahun, dua tahun!" Well, eight months may be new but still we went through alot together. I miss you alot, pot pot.

I got sooo much to talk about THIS year. But I'm just too lazy to type it out.

& I DID NOT EXPECT TO BE WITH A CLUBBER FOR MONTHS NOW!! DANG!!

2 more days to meeting lovee.
3 more days to New year countdown.
10 more days to results.
26 more days to chalet.
29 more days to my birthday.

goodbye people, i need sleep.

nyeha!

2008-12-26T03:07:00.010+08:00

Copycat me!(below)

soooo cute!

FUCK ITE!! FUCK THE RESULTS MAN!! SERIOUSLY!! There's a bunch of my friends and myself, of course, gets an unsuccessful results for the application and it sucks alot! And something unexpected from lovee's 'status'. LOL! Member punyer lah sort! Aku lagik sort! Tak dapat langsung! Fuck N(A) Student lah! Naek jek uh Sec 5! And I'm happy for my buddy and friends. Oh yeah, my bud, Poh Seng, gets Aerospace for his course. And Wan gets Electrical Tech for his course. Zamir gets service skills at Bishan, I think. And anyways, Good luck Alysha for your interview this coming Monday:)

So yesterday was a last minute plan to town. Lovee was bored so texted up the rest and only a few could join. Myself, Haziq, lovee, Zamir, Afiq, Wan, Aie and Mael. So christmas at town, lol. Met lovee, Zamir and Afiq at Far East and the boys waited or me at least an hour and forty-five minutes. Okay what! Rather than two hours, heh! So around Far East for a little while then off to Taka, and met up with Haziq, Aie and Mael. Off to Cineleisure and had dinner at Long John then Wan came. To Heeren and then bus ride to Marina, balek balek tempat si Zamir, sial btol. Pool for nearly two hours and then bus ride home.

So in the bus I was like talking non-stop with lovee, at least dier layan jugek. And then a text message from this guy friend of mine and the conversation between the both of us were different. So he said his piece and I said my piece, only talks no arguments. Yes! Thank god! Then tears roll down my cheeks and he asked, whats wrong and wipe away for me my tears and my 'taik mater'(not taik mater okay, my eyeliner lah!). -___- They get down at Yio Chu Kang while I get down at the interchange and the train ride. Thanks lovee for accompanying me through the phone till six in the morning, heh!

&&&&& I didn't expect someone to play pool, that good! LOL!
And MAYBE town later on, I guess! If I'm not tired!

I'm having fever and flu and my butt hurts so much! Whenever there's argument with him, I'm always falling sick. He even noticed it.

"Even when there's a little trust,
a little commitment between us.
I'm trying my best to have that 'trust' gained
from you and myself and commitment.
And I'm pretty sure,
soon enough you will understand me fully,
give it some times. I love you:) "

I'll update soon!
12 more days to results.
32 more days to my birthday:) hee!

2008-12-24T13:40:00.005+08:00

Okay currently lovee is beside me right now, hello sweetheart, LOL!

So last Tuesday I head down to East Coast since someone was having a pit. And lovee doesn't quite like me being close and maybe being friends with him. But come on, he's your friend and so is my friend. Oh that guy is Izzat, lovee's primary school mate and my friend which I've just met this year at Rouge. Eventhough he 'said' something to my bestfriend but oh well, forgive and forget. Except for the fact that some people just can't accpet what he said. So there were some familiar faces. Acul, Ady, Anand, Haziq and more. Make a move around eight I think and off to Fernvale. Okay the bus ride was really not a fun one. Since there's this someone which sucks alot. Nak marah-marah aku, ank cakap aku tipu ni sumer, padehal dier lagik rabak siol! The argue with him was really sucky. I accidentally shouted at him and him shouting back at me. And I know our friends yang dekat hall sumer terdiam. Aiyer, so sorry ehk!

Thanks Haziq for accompanying me. And he sure made me smile. Thanks to Farhan and Mamat for accompanying me too. Thanks Mamat for accompanying me all the way to the bus stop.

So yesterday was Fernvale. Lovee was being such an ass towards me. Last-last cakap aku yang action ngan dier, mepek sey. So the card games was funny, I guess. He asked me to follow him somewhere but not far from the place we sat. So he gave me a stick. And I started saying that I misses him real much. He kept quiet and he touches he's eyes and 'rub' it. Talked with him and he puts his hands across my shoulder and I gave him a kiss on his cheek. So slack for a little while and off to Farhan's crib. Internet and Mirror movie for a while and ate Briyani and internet for a little while and sleep. Okay, when I've reached home, I was having fever and backaching. And my butt hurts so much, damn. Don't think negative.

Some people would jump into conclusions. Like me, I admit. But some people are worst. It sucks alot. Fuck people like you. And the 'UNEXPECTED' thing you are talking about. Well, at that point of time, HE himself said that he was really furious at me. Because I've said something which I shouldn't have said. And if he were to said something unexpected, he shouldn't have 'INVITED' me! For God sake, but oh well. He do lie, alot. But the complaining thingy, maybe it can be something sucky or maybe not. So I won't know:) And I don't even wanna fuck about it anymore. And I don't even mind not going to the chalet at all. Heh!

Editted @ 2.07pm, 25th December

Today plan was to head down Macpherson to apply the courses for next year for ITE with lovee, since it was public hols so maybe tomorrow and today it shall be towning. But lovee wanna do something fun. So I'm not sure about it. And oh yeah, I'm picking Digital Animation for first choice at Macpherson and Facility Tech for my second choice at Simei. And lovee nak samer skolah kan ngan aku? Hahaha, lol! Tengok ehk macam maner. And I wish to get in Macpherson!!

Will update soon!
:)

I love you, naz.

sg & vietnam

2008-12-22T01:09:00.005+08:00

Din's.

Mamat, punyer lah cute!

Firstly my results sucks alot. Due to the sickness, I only had two subject passed. Saket salah hari sial! And if I were perfectly fine for that day, for that paper(s!!) I known I should have pass. And pass getting into Service skills. Damn!

I try to recall what has been going on for the past few days. I slack with the boys and more. Actually I can't remember that much. Videos of Zamir and me was soooo 'tak betol'! I'll post it soon. Okay, I can't remember much! I spend my Saturday with families, cousins, aunties and uncles at Simpang Bedok. We had dinner together.

And today soccer match was worth it, pretty much! So before heading down to Kallang, I met lovee up at his crib. Spend quantity time and had fun together. Then the rest head off to his crib then to Ajan's then bus ride to Kallang. Haziq and lovee drop down at Paya Lebar. Met them at Kallang and around, I don't know what that place call actually. So before the match started 'our' row was the so call, tempat yang paling meyumpah sekali! Lol! I had a fun night with them watching soccer and I love it so much. And 'us' with Singaporean's sitting just next to Vietnam was really interesting. Tak sia-sia! Hahaha! The fight between this pakcik and vietnamnese, the fight between an uncle and this stupid vietnamnese, the fight between singaporeans throwing stuff at vietnam was really hilarious! And our row of spectators was really using alot of vulgar! Including me, yes. And Beng part was really cute saying out loud the 'vietnam' word macam auntie auntie punyer suare. And him throwing an empty bottle and the reaction of the vietnamnese, kekek giler. Muker bodoh sia. And, the part where Vietnam was cheering, there's this mat, tunjok birbird, huh kao! Depan makcik lagik! Makcik muker merah, paiseh and laki boleh ketawerkan lagik! Like I say, hilarious!

Precious was slow. Alam had this one nice shot but misses it, takraw punyer backflip dok! Lionel was okay okay lah. Indra was cute running here and there. Bahaikki was soooo....sigh! Tak nampak Agu langsung seh!

"Nak kene beli ticket two days in advance siot ni!"
Member punyer lah confident! At last harapkan Thailand untok menang! Hahahah!

"Pukimak kao lah sial!!"
"Balek pegi tdo sudah!"
"Pegi jilat mak kao peh puki lah ehk!!"
Hahahah.

Eventhough Singapore did not get into the finals, but oh well the $2 entry, was worth it. Seriously. And Singaporeans burning their flag, I think. And some Singaporeans punyer lah sebok. Nak gadoh lah nak tu lah nak ni lah! Alah but whatever it is, Singapore still, the best. Hahahha XD And hello hotstuff! I saw Diyanah at the stadium :)

Someone punyer lah merepek nak mampos. And FOR GOD SAKE, PEOPLE DO LIE! :) Shithead, man. Hahahah! Jangan banyak bebual k? K go!

& FUCK VIETNAM!!

2008-12-17T12:38:00.008+08:00

Supposingly, Poh Seng wanted to meet me up yesternight. Having fun with him all night long, but since lovee was on the bed and he was sick. So I don't have the heart to enjoy myself late at night. Heh! Sayang babe! LOL!

It's been days already lovee was going around with high fever, ulcers here and there in his mouth and his gum is hurting. I told you, I would accompany and pay for you your medical fees, since you don't insist on it, you're struggling on your own. -_- Well, for now I'm already feeling well, except that I'm having the same pain like what lovee is having and yesterday when I reach home I vomitted what I ate with Zura and Nana. My gum hurts so much and it's growing! Damn, it really hurts alot! My ulcers is gone, my fever has reduce. Putting myself to eat tablets every single day and which I really hate to do so. I miss lovee so much. Boo~

"Get well soon aite sweetheart?

I miss spending time with you.
I love you potpot!"

So, I've changed my link. The link remind me of someone. Someone who loves partying alot, loves electronic/psychedelic music ALOT! And he's known for his ModCentricLove pm, but now he's only serving NS, lol. So no time, haha. I miss talking to him, I miss chatting with him! He's always there and I'm always here to entertain him and him entertain me each night!

I'm not sure whats tonight plan is. And I soooo can't wait for Seduction @ Zouk! And I think I need to step in to DblO soon or maybe butter cookies! It's a must!!
Will update more, goodbye freaks.

& on top of that, I think my N results (which is tomorrow) gonna suck real bad! Confirm!

Kirt Voreis is soooooo coooooool!

2008-12-13T18:11:00.001+08:00

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falling for you again.

2008-12-11T23:32:00.007+08:00

I'm very sick, very very sick. I'm having fever like days now. Since the day I spend my time at East Coast till now. My fever is going up and downs. I feel really shitty. And the loves all says that I'm falling sick each time when I'm too stressed and I think of stuffs. I agree to it. If not, I would be happily spending my time with lovee NOW! Boo~

Yesterday plan was to stick at home, since I was not feeling well. Since Deedee was at Admiralty, I met him and bus ride to Fernvale. It's been so long since I've last saw him. And the talks with him was really great, hahaha! We were like talking stuff behind "people's" back. Rabak-rabak siol. Lol! Slack with the rest and naseb baek aku saket, kalau tak aku dah serbu ketam-ketam korang tangkap! Slack with the boys till morning. Sun rises up, then went off to... alah bawah bridge Layar lah senang kater. Ajan caught some crabs. Then the rest came. So they caught... I can't remember how many crabs they caught. But there's alot though. Waited for th bus to reach and while waiting, lovee was being so action. Hahahah! Giget kao baru tahu! I sound soooo mentel, haha! Reached home, on the phone with lovee. And dier punyer lah gatal! And we, I'm sorry! It's HIM, been always talking and talking and talking about the same thing! When I say this, ader jek tao dier kene kan balek. And while he was saying something irritating and he keeps repeating it. I accidentally said something when I shouldn't say it at all! And I know he can't accept it. If it were me also, I can't accept it. But sweetheart I'm really sorry! I don't even know how to face you. Really:(

2008-12-10T08:46:00.003+08:00

"Syg klau u ckp ni sumer kesah lamer, asl baru skarang dier nk tulis sumer bende pasal u? Asl secare tiber2 baru dier nk ungkit balek sumer kesah2 lamer? Asl?"

You kissed me, you hug me and more. Do you feel love or only lust? The question lingering on my mind. Not only one but thousands of questions on my mind. I was suppose to head down Clarke Quay yesterday but since my fever was getting worse. So I got myself ready and just slack with the boys at Fernvale. So I showed lovee something. And I can see that my attitude ain't that sucky towards him, over such matters! I don't know why. Probably, I'm USED to it already! Lol! So fishing with the boys was okay lah. And the time spend with you was not so great but it was good. I didn't expect myself to be such a nice lady, heh! Alah, USED to it already! And aper merepek tah Mamat cakap aku samer dengan budak tamp diorang. Aper sajer tah! Male some more -__-

I have a seminar later on with the long-time-no-see-cute-handsome friend of mine, DEEP! I'm so not sure whether I would head down to the offcie later on. Sigh! And the talk with Nana in the bus was so full of details. Hahahaha! If possible we will be booking chalet for our countdown this year. Since mummy have totally agreed! Yeah! InsyaAllah jadi yer. There's no need for you to have privacy lah slenger! Lol!

And someone very 'sick'! You know, I know.

I miss the old times I had with someone ALOT, not Nazry fyi.
Macam aleh2 gitu. So weird. Hahahaha!
Someone you guys won't think of. Well he's someone's now. I know whats my limit:)

will update more:)

you're a heartbreaker.

2008-12-09T15:14:00.005+08:00

Firstly first, Happy Birthday to Nazry's mum:)
_______________________________________________________

Those TYPE of people are human beings to lah ehk. Suker hati diorang lah, susah hati sangat kenaper? Mepek sak! -____- And don't judge:)

Hari Raya Haji was okay lah since I was ill. I was having backaching and high fever. So spend our time at Nenek's crib and blah blah blah. Then we had dinner at Siam Kitchen then to Swensen. Punyer lah giler makcik aku ni ngan mummy mummy aku skali giler! Oh, mummy says MAYBE she's paying half the price for our chalet or MAYBE full price. And in that case we only pay for our junk foods. So maybe Aloha Changi or Loyang uh. But whatever it is I prefer Changi, heh! I still remember the time I had fun with Yanti's friends. It was really awesome! I miss those times like alot! And I miss Fernvale chalet like alot too!

I had nothing to do with anyone's friends. Secondly, I simply got no time for that. And I already have my OWN friends :) :) :) :) And lovee says whether I would wanna tag along to his friend chalet, but then fikir fikir balek, tak payah sudah. Cause I know someone won't like it and I know they won't have any privacy nanti, hahaha! I told lovee that I won't be letting him to go to his friend chalet, because of some reason(s). I'm really bad ehk. And one more thing. Jangan cakap asek-asek nak dengar cakap aku jek. Aku pon dah penat lah asek nak ikotkan kater kao jek!

So lovee(i dont know why the heck i'm still calling him 'lovee'), won't say anything, won't answer to my questions that I've given him. Which I think, however hard it is to get an answer from him, he knows that I would have wild imaginations about this stuff. Jangan nak cakap asl boleh lempar taik ke paper lah ehk k sayang? I know you did wrong behind my back, so admit it. Susah sangat ker? Paleng2 pon kalau kao cakap yang btol, at least aku tahu per. Bukannyer aku tak tahu. Daripader aku dapat tahu sendiri lagik macam sial kan nanti. Bodo la u ni! Hahaha! And don't say she's not saying the truth. If she's not saying the truth, asal mesti dier tulis gitu macam? Asl mesti dier cakap pasal kao? Asl mesti dier cakap itu ini pasal kao? Tak terfiker ker? I thought my very own boyfriend was an intelligent guy, but I'm wrong. He's such an asshole. I feel slightly hurt(because it's you who i am in love with!) when I write something crucial about you, but I just can't seem to stop talking about how you make me hurt and more.

You kept asking me why? Why and why? Am I like this? You should ask yourself WHY the heck am I like this bitch. You know all the fucking answer to all my actions. After the so call 22nd November what did you promised me? What did you said to me? I remember all those words clearly! You said that you don't have any feelings for her but you care for her. I accept that. But not more than that. Which I was referring to was those disgusting actions you did. If you don't have feelings for her and you ONLY cared for her, why must there be hugs and kisses? And I may not know MAYBE you even had sex with her. I wouldn't know. I'm sorry for being too harsh. It's so easy for you to give her free kisses and hugs when you don't even have feelings for her. What's this about? And to someone, I think people like you can think very well.

Iyllia Nazry, you're just a heartbreaker
:'(

It's such waste, I wasted my time loving you, care for you, cry for you and pity you.

I need something to let go of everything.
For hours will be good enough, just to set my mind on ease.
My fever is getting worse, damn.

And to babe, who tagged me at my tagboard. Why do you ask me such question such as did I ever had sex with Nazry or not.

why?

2008-12-08T04:30:00.007+08:00

So apparently I've been missing for like five days? Yeah. So last Wednesday was suppose to be following mummy for a shopping spree but since mummy was busy and I was really shagged by coming back early in the morn, so we postpone it to Thursday. So Wednesday night was partying for a little while. Met up with Nana, Fanny, Lanny and Du at Admiralty and Zura, Leha, Deedee and the rest at Boat Quay. The party, tak lamer langsung cause they were fights here and there. Sigh! Well, it was ladies night, but to bad the boys were paying fifteen bux for nothing. Down the drain seh, hahah! Walked to Clarke Quay and slack at the bridge opposite Riverisde. And the bass was calling, macam sial. Trained home with Nana, Du, Lanny and Fanny. And bed.

Thursday was a trip to Bugis for only a little while since mummy was meeting her friend at her crib, so yeah. I bought a electro design tee and a topshop top. And I know lovee doesn't like me wearing that topshop top that I bought. Alah dah TERbeli uh babe, sorry uh! Heh! Then off to Fernvale.

Friday, I accompanied Zura to East Coast to her sister side chalet only for a little while. Then to Fernvale. And lovee being such an ass when I said something that he doesn't like. So he walked with along the path and he stopped and sat down. I'll continue it later on. So after, argueing with each other. Slack head off to his crib for a little while.

So I spend my Saturday night at East Coast. Firstly met up with Nana and Bob. Then waited for Farid then off o my crib, to get myself ready. Bus ride to Fernvale slack with the boys and off to East Coast. The plan was to spend time with lovee together, just the two of us. Then Ajan, Nana, Yanti and Bob were with us, so the plan we had was drinking. And the boys opposite our tent, they were under the shelter, was so call, step gerek, for me lah. Entah macam maner Ajan boleh melekat dengan diorang, boleh kasi Friendster email lah tu lah ini lah! I fall sick that morning and lovee was there with me. And I was having backaching for not having a proper sleep. Thanks sis for the massage:) You care for me alot. So that moning till the sun rises up I didn't know what happen, cause I was taking a nap. So around nine plus we packed our stuff and off to McDonalds. Had our breakfast and then bus ride home.

Okay I continue it. I wasn't exactly, angry with him. But I was just asking. You shouldn't get so agitated and feel really irritated by me. Cause you know, YOU ARE IN THE WRONG! Not long after he raised his voice so did I raised mine. Infront of Mamat. I was really embarrassed, for god sake. Embarrassed of you, embarrassed of your disgusting actions, embarrassed of everything about you! It disgust me alot! I don't even know why am I still liking you, still loving you, falling for you, still care for you. I don't know why. I can't even imagine I just wrote that down. As you can see, I know I did alot of stuff behind your back.

Sometimes I would say, if you can do the exact same thing, why can't I? Why were you so upset when I ruined just a little bit of MYSELF with those thing(i just can't reveal it, it may hurt someone alot!)? Why were you? You shouldn't be crying for me, buat muker kesian kao dekat aku lah ehk. Sedangkan SUMER ORANG tahu kenaper aku buat ni sumer. If you really love me, care for me and say that you are committed in our relationship, but why are shits happening? From you, for god sake. FROM YOU! You being such a difficult person. Doing stuff behind my back and putting trust on someone so when I came asking her, she wouldn't spill the bean. Aper sak kao peh maksod? Pukimak peh jantan! I really had enough of you. I was tearing infront of you because of what? The same old stupid mistake you did. You even tell me you're so sick and tired of this. Ehk common lah, saper yang bersalah, aku ker kao, pukimak?!! Kalau kao berfikir, kao tahu kao peh limit. Ni sumer tak terjadi sial. Aku memang penah lah ehk, buat bende yang aku tak sepatutnyer buat blakang kao. But I've realised my mistake. I know whats my limit. It's no use knocking sense into you for like ALOT of times, kalau tak masok masok pon dalam kepaler otak kao. If you really want us to be together for a long period of time, gain my trust. Stop saying its up to me whether you wanna beleive it or not. Start saying I will gain your trust, please. And for now, I'm trying to gain my trust back from you. I'm really tring my fucking best. Believe me, we will go far. And I need you to stop doing stuff that will disgust me alot and which will hurt me alot. With that someone or with whoever lah.

I know my postition in our so call 'relationship'.
I know who I belong to. Remember that.

And why do I ask you why does she have to say those words which you think is not true? And why do you have to answer, that you don't even know why she's saying those words? Why?

:'(

2008-12-05T14:28:00.003+08:00

I'll update pretty soon, I guess.
I need to get myself ready, chalet with Zura later on.

& someone is being soooooo merepek nowadays:)

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2008-12-03T10:37:00.003+08:00

I just reached home. I'm dead beat. I'm starting to have this feelings like again. Well, what to do hahah. Like what Zamir say, 'that's life, you have to get on with it'. Hahaha.

So MAYBE shopping with mummy later at if I could wake up early. And then party with the love ones! Hell yeah, I'll make sure I wanna get myself high. Not drunk! (tapi aku peh suker uh nak mabok ker taknak, kalau kao fikir aper yang kao buat tu btol ker tk, then if you think you're wrong then you don't have the right to say whether I could get myself drunk or not! thanks ehk!)

will update more on just now and the present, heh!

2008-12-01T12:04:00.006+08:00

27th November

29th November

Nana, soo kecik and sooo cute!

Kasot baru, baju baru!

my twin

girlfriends.

shan't be to over.

2008-12-01T11:10:00.003+08:00

Fernvale on the 27th on celebrating Mamat's advance and Afiq's belated birthday. And yeah, it was a really fun one. Met the girls at pit then off to Ajan's and met up lovee there. Talk, talk and talk. Ah k. The plan was to let lovee hold the cake, but then kan macam bochui kalau si Iylia tak ader. I hide behind this thing holding that large cake infront of me with Zura and waited for the both of them to sit down. While waiting I was really tired of squatting(it was pretty long though) and Zura was so noisy. LOL! Then lovee was like asking us to come out. I was like slowly walking towards them and kneel down. Jangan cakap dorang mangkok! Aku lagik mangkok! Jalan depan dorang macam aper tah dengan cake, dengan orang yang tak kenal tengok. Tapi tak pasal, heh! And I notice that both of them wanted to cry, tapi tahan! Hahahaha! And the part where they spread some melted chocolate on Mamat and Afiq's face and eggs on Afiq's head and eggs on Mamats back was hilarious! Really. And jangan cakap birthday boy jek uh yang kene, sabo, yang laen sumer kene dengan aku aku sekali pun kene. Tu tak pasal yg laen kene air puteh, aku kene air soya bean dengan Deedee! Kurang ajar. And I smell of soya bean all over. I freaked out you know cause I didn't expect it was suppose to be soya bean. My hair was so wet and so leket. And lovee was describing how I look when he came running to me pouring water on me. And my reaction sucks alot -__- And WE glad the both of them love it. I was like, "Mamat, second cake keper?" And he gave me a really big smile.

So on the 28th, the actual plan was to Sentosa and celebrates Mamat's 17th, but then it was cancelled due to some were working and schooling, damn. I was hopping for some beach hunks, beach games, beach activities. Alamak! So with the boys at Fernvale.

On Saturday the 29th, towning with Nana, Tyson, Yanti, Fanny, Bob and Daniel & his girlfriend. Met them up and train ride. Lunch at Far East and around Far East. Slack outside and then soon Ajan came followed by Zura and Zamir. Then soon the rest went off to Esplanade leaving me, Ajan, Zura and Zamir. Met up with lovee, Farhan, Mira, Afiq and Mamat. Slack and sat along the stairs of Taka and walked to the bust stop and bus ride to Marina, tempat Zamir. Heh! Actually for that night the plan was to town then off to Crown.Then ader orang ni buat prangai giler babi punyer tao! Macam nak jotos2 jek kepaler kao! Tahu tak?!! Argh! Then I went off early with Zura bus ride home. I was really sleepy and tired. Since this days I've been turning in early and waking up early.

30th, yesterday was swimming with the boys. It was fun. And the part where Mail got bullied the boys was hilarious. And in the jaccuzzi. There's a small kid keeps splashing water on Mail. Hahaha! And lovee... aku gigit kao baru tahu! So very the gatal! I sound so mentel! LOL! And the part where lovee was sending me to the bus stop, dier lari macam pondan! CSI marathon with lil sis and bed. Lovee has started being so busy and hooking up with DJ Max, LIKE AGAIN. Fcuk!

today's plan shall be towning with Leha and Nana I guess since lovee was going over to Tampines. If not, a stay at home. Confirm dier suker sekali, biler aku dok pat umah jek!
will update more.

celebration and present.

2008-11-27T09:00:00.008+08:00

The party at Powerhouse was fun, except for the fact that the rest of lovee's friends and my friends went in first leaving lovee, Mamat and myself outside. And we went in late. Okay, Tuesday I woke pretty early cause I turn in pretty early the day before, I guess. So, the mall with mummy and bought for Mamat a birthday cake, since I wanted to have a mini celebration just outside the club:) And I'm terribly sorry to Mamat and lovee sicne they went in pretty late, as they were waiting for me, but they don't mind, hee! But I did asked them to go in first okay! So waited for the last one to arrive, Lanny... and then party! So the mini celebration went pretty well. Firstly was I gave Mamat a paper bag with a present in it. And he was being really cute, "ape ni?", "birthday present kao.." I put a really big smile on my face, and the smile on his face was really cute! And the boys were like, "chey Mamat dpt present uh!" and member muker malu! Hahahah! And yes, he love the present and the first cake of all he had received in his life. Macam nak nanges siol aku, tahan gang pasal make up, heh! Drink a lil bit only! Since I was pretty busy that night. And yesterday was the first night, nak club then hujan, punyer lah sejok!

Saw Ganesh at TSK, chit chat and ya blah blah. Member dah jadi Supervisor seh! I miss working there! So party all the way and Kai was like talking to me non stop! Hahaha! And this friend of mine punyer girlfriend punyer lah tak puas hati. Dengar-dengar aku ajak matair kao pegi club per? Dier yang nak pegi! Aper sajer tah! Thanks alot to Deedee he had a long tal with that girl through the phone. And Nana asek asek ketawer! And Nana keep saying that lovee, like happy-go-luck-guy, always laugh here laugh there! So funny! Walk to 7eleven and they boys and girls had cup noodles while I only had a drink. Nak buat keje uh! So slacked and leaving the boys to take a bus ride home while I took a cab home. I was really tired from the walking here and there and more.

(I don't know what the hell lovee was

thinking hiding behind my ass!)

And now it's like 9plus in the morning. And the night spend with lovee was okay lah, hahaha. And i love you, baby!

Anyway I wanna have breakfast, animal planet and star world then if I have the time a nap for while cause later on will be heading Fernvale and meet up with the boys and girls for Mamat's and Afiq's birthday celebration.

Last but not least,

HAPPY 16TH BELATED
BIRTHDAY TO AFIQ

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY

TO DEAREST MAMAT!

You were there for me when I need a listening ear.
You were there to accompany me.
I really appreciate every single thing that you had done.
I hope I had done my best for you mini birthday.
And I'm really glad you love it:)
I love you real much, friend.

And due-due member aku dapat Reebok Pump siol! *sobsob*

And someone says I got nice shoes, hahah!
Nice nice jugak, tapi kene hujan kotor, pantart rebos!

To people out there! It's not complicated at all between me and Nazry, not at all. Please just don't keep tagging about me and Nazry. I wouldn't write the whole story, the whole situation, the manipulate, the benefits he gets and whatever shit. I appreciate the comments saying you want me to be happy. I do want to be happy and I am happy now! There can be arguments here and there about something not major but minor. But yet, at the end of the day I do love him. As the feelings could not be fading away JUST LIKE THAT! For god sake! And I know people have been saying alot of 'stuff' about him. But look on the brighter side people, he can change:)

Will update soon, lovessssssssssssssssss.

2008-11-25T13:28:00.004+08:00

I can't wait for later's on party at Powerhouse! Will going with Nana, Nazrul, Jermaine&her boyfriend and meet their friends there! So will be meeting lovee and his friends there. And I really hope Mamat will love what I will give him later on! Really I hope. How I wish I was there to witness what he gets for his birthday present. Reebok Pump dok! Okay, I wanna eat! And the talk on the phone wih lovee yesterday was 'so funny'. Hahahaha! And someone just sucks alot, which is my lil sis. Argh!

And so what if I'm one? Do you have to be so nosey? If I am one, your used to be 'love ones' is definitely one of them too, FOR GOD SAKE!

So get it right, okay asshole? :)

Alysha: "hey linsih. pinjam ic uh. then join me. anyway baby, hope that youre fine. (:"

How I wish I could Zoukout with her! Damn!!

XOXO Party

2008-11-23T07:57:00.004+08:00

We cordially invite all of you to THE EVENT OF THE YEAR!!

THE MEGA PARTY
“XOXO”
25th November 2008
St James Powerstation,
Powerhouse.

For one night only, 4 chosen mega “alpha youths”
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Come join us as Mister Sheikh Haikel grills them on love, life, destiny, betrayals, scandals and of course GOSSIP that you are DYING to hear.

There’s something for everyone at THE MEGA PARTY 2008!
So put on those glitterati of yours to impress, and join us for THE MEGA PARTY for the year!

Doors open at 9pm till late.

Contact LINSIH for tickets, 90609145!!!
Cheapest tickets assured!

Prom Night 2008

2008-11-23T06:37:00.002+08:00

more pictures soon.

And

Happy 23rd Birthday
to my brother!!

2008-11-22T09:48:00.003+08:00

I'll post about Prom Night soon and for tonight I'm so not sure whether I should head to Crown's or Clown or whatsoever lah. A new club located at Boat Quay. E Bar managment. Nazry just says that I should not go. Maybe St James this coming 25th? Hell yeah! I must must go!! It's like weeks or a month plus since I head down and enjoy myself in an amostphere that I extremely love! Hahaha! Or meet up with the friends cause they wanna go fishing. Hahahah! And I know someone wants to talk to me. But he just doesn't know when is the good time. Sigh! I'll wait aight? :)

I'm freaking tired after a ride, very long journey you know, slacking at Pasir Ris Pond with the boys. Since Ajan, his grandmum and his uncles were there fishing. I didn't had enough of you spending time with me. And you even say you do too. How I wish it was only the two of us.

Well Nazry, I really do miss you. I meet you up pretty soon when I'm really free!! So sorry! I've been busy with this other group of friends. I miss Fnvl Legacy :(

i lovee this.

my bestfriend.

2008-11-20T10:44:00.007+08:00

Bestfriends are the siblings God forgot to give us.

so cute kan dier!! biler baru baru ader nike airmax! haha

Wednesday
Supposingly I have to accompany mummy to Raffles for some event. Since I woke up pretty late around Maghrib. Ending up lil sis accompanied mummy. I have myself ready and off to Fernvale. Since the girls were there, except for Mira. I miss her so much. I reached pretty late so ya, slack for a little while, laugh here and there. And then I approached Deedee while he was alone at the vending machine. We had our private talk together. He's been asking me the same question what Nazry and Ajan had asked me weeks back. So I answered him honestly. I just can't lie to him. He's the only one I could talk too, when I want to reveal everything and I mean, everything. I know there's Farhan, Zura, Leha, Mira, Zamir, Afiq and more. But if it's not for Deedee, I won't even know who they are. He told me every single thing so did I. I told him every thing that not even Nazry or anyone knows about it. And it hurts me seeing my very own bestfriend cries infront of me, really. I teared because of his words that he had put in for me. I teared because he wants to be there for me, but I just changed. I teared when Nazry told me that even when I say that they turn into someone else, he has always loved me and care for me. And I'm just the first friend to see him cry. It hurts me alot :'( And the part where he told me about Nazry's 'friend' was really disgusting and sick! What an ass! -___-"

L: "Ily both real much."
D: ".....love u too darlink. .take care k. ........."

The plan after Sengkang was fishing with Nazrul, Du, Bob, Tyson and more. But I passed on, since I know someone won't like it. On the phone with Nazry for a while then I head off to bed. I was really sleepy at that point of time.

Thursday
I woke real early today, eight in the morning. Ironed Saiful's wear and get ready the blazer's that the boys will be wearing later on. And I need ideas of how to have their hair and make ups done. Chatted with Lienna and abang. Then send out soem resumes and blogskins and music and friendster and msn and msn. Heh! I need to clean up my room later on since the girls will be getting ready at my crib. And the boys too. I won't be having any date for tonight's event. Heck care, I don't even need one. And now, I'm waiting for dad to reach home and have breakfast!!

oh btw the avatar there is Victoria Beckham, hotstuff!
So will update more on later's Prom Night!
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

tags.

2008-11-20T10:23:00.003+08:00

mira: are u willing to share your BF kisses, hugs and time with another girl? u are gorgeous n kind, u deserve more better guy. his sweet talks meant nothing and u still believe it? com'on every1 can sweet talk but either they mean it or not
18 November 2008, 12:31
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mira: evry1 giving u advise not that they hate u or him but they hate to see the way he treat u and the other girl, he enjoy the benefit of both of u but still both of u wish that it never happen to share ur love ones with another person. grow up and think, those sweet words he said meant nothing n trick ur heart
18 November 2008, 12:33
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Passerby: I agree 100% ! Have you ever pondered that when he says he loves you, but why in the world is he with the other girl; snogging? dont you feel hurt?
im not interfering or anything. but im just stating my opinions. sorry btw;)
20 November 2008, 00:54
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emma: u need a reason? or u cannot see? lemme guess.. u refuse to see.. ur bf treats u like a princess? same goes for her lah.. aiyo.. lucky guy. sweet talk here and there and he gets the attention of 2 ladies! wow
20 November 2008, 00:56
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emma: from how u blog u sound like an intelligent person. i think u noe better but just want to stay. for what? only u noe
20 November 2008, 01:12
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by talks,

2008-11-19T08:09:00.006+08:00

Sentosa cancelled. And the funny part was that, farhan got his stuff ready last last tak jadi. Hahahah!

And Saiful ring me up, while I was sleeping. Punyer lah sedap, until someone has to always ruin my sleep, heh! Well, supposingly yesterday was our outing to Sentosa but it was cancelled and Hakim gave us a treat to Seoul Garden for all of us. We took out only five bux for splendid/delicious/full/fantastic dinner, hahaha! I still remember saying, early this year someone treated the class to Seould Garden for my birthday and Warda cooked meat for me, and so she did the same yesterday, haha! Thanks alot. So we had such a wonderful dinner and we slacked for a little while. While the girls seperated, the boys and myself head down to my crib for something, that has to do something with our prom night which is TOMORROW a dn them trying on blazer(s)! I seriously can't wait for it.

And tomorrow plan was to prom night and then to Attica, since Attica was having an event tapi punyer lah siang nak mampos habes, tak payah sudah! Since Wan's birthday falls on the 22nd and why not we celebrate it at Attica. So maybe tomorrow's plan to have our night drinking away :))))

Slack with the boys. On the phone with Nazry. And I know Nazry was a little bit furious about me not picking up his calls, since he left me 83 missed calls on my phone! We talked about something, but we didn't argue about anything. And the part where he told me about Deedee, sad to say is that I broke down and cry quietly, and he could listen to it, that I am crying. Heh! And talked about us, he asked such questions and yeah me too. I keep on listening what he have to say about us, his friends, our friends and all. We were really open actually. Not really open about that kind of talk lah. And I've just put down the phone. I really miss my bestfriends alot. I miss Deedee, I miss Wanie so muchhhhh!!

And the two of them(Nazry&Dee) have been saying that I'm changing. Yeah, maybe I'm changing, it's just that I didn't noticed it. Since I have been saying that they're the ones who have changed. Well everybody is changing lah k. Hee!

And now, I'm here writing down my post early in the morning. Time check, it's only 8.35 in the morning. And I'm waiting for my dad to reach home and have breakfast with him. Heh! And I need to wake up real early today, cause I'm meeting Hakim at Causeway around 1.30 in the afternoon since he needs my accompany in searching for his prom night, which is his shoes. And follow mummy to Raffles City or somehwere since mummy wants me to help out skit at her don't know what event lah. At least dapat $$!!! Hohoho! Actually today's plan was to head down Fernvale since Nazry wants me to head down there and I miss my friends there!! So namind lah, make it tomorrow or Friday k babe?

Dengar lagu R&B ngan hiphop, gian siol nak jejak club.
Dengar lagu tecktonic buat nak gerak tangan ajek!
Dnegar lagu hardstyle macam nak tarok base dekat Powerhouse dekat telinger, lgik kuat gitu.
Dengar lagu techno macam nak buat bende laen, heh!

And I definitely can't wait for St James baybeh! Harap2 details cepat lah kluar!! Argh!! Must must go one tao ni!! And Nazry confirm pegi punyer!! Abg, I want to ride in your car also seh!! :(( Not only that biatch!! I'm your adek seh, say want to ride me!!

And maybe tomorrow's shall be prom night, spending the night away with firends drinking or maybe, prom night and rush to Clark Quay and meet up with Nazry all. Since MAYBE he will be going to Attica! Damn you!!!

I will definitely give you time, it's been six months plus I get to know you. And I know for us to start a relationship together, it might be rocky. Well it takes me one year to let go of everything. I know how it feels.

"I nk jadi mataer u sey!"

"Tpi i tahu kte akan jdi mataer.."

I really hope all this will end pretty soon.
Will update more, muackzzz.

2008-11-16T11:57:00.000+08:00

KANASAI!

2008-11-16T10:58:00.003+08:00

"Ok..i syg u..u tau kn..dalah..lupekn je uh......bb.."

Most of it in second language.

Some things can't be posted, I'm so sorry. I really do wanna post, TAKOT NANTI ADER ORANG MENGAMOK UH, tak payah sudah. Nanti tak pasal-pasal, KECOH! Heh! Whatever it is, kao buat salah, aku pun buat salah. Kao buat taik, aku pun buat taik. Samer-samer per. Hahahaha, tk btol? Kalau kao boleh fikir aper kao buat tu btol, aku pun boleh fikir aper aku buat tu pun btol. Ader banyak lagik menunggu lah siol. Penat cakap penat, aku ader banyak lagik tangkes. Kalau maser dah sampaikan, baru aku bilang kao aper yang tak sepatutnyer kao tahu. Tengok uh saper lagik sial. :)

And.. kalau korang tak suker budak **** tu korang peh pasal uh ehk. Nak potong ker nak tu ker nak ni ker, korang peh pasal uh. Korang fikir aku heran per? Tapi stop it sia, nak cakap pasal aku campor atao kacau aku dengan budak ****, konek tahu tak, konek?

This few days we're not on good terms. Well, I don't mind. Aku dah malas nak gadoh2 ni sumer. Sooo penat. Well I PREFER being outside with my friends rather than sticking at home with him on the phone being a nag. How I wish I could just enjoy the air outside since I promised someone SOEMTHING! Which dier tak percayer aku langsung pun, aduh shusha! -______-

".....Love u real much.."

Hmmmm, yaaaaaaaa. Whatever dumbass! That's what you call me bitch.

I can't wait for sentosa and prom night. Wan Farhan and Afiq's birthday coming soon, you know.

And I can't wait to meet Nazry! Lol! Sometimes it feels like giving him a tight slap on his face and sometimes it feels like giving him hugs and kisses. But well, sometimes it feels like giving him a knife and let him stab me in the heart. Oh wait, don't let me stab you in the heart aite babe? Hahaha. I need food. It's been days since I've last eat. Dan muker aku maken chengkung. Kalau bacer, confirm Naz, Ajan fikir laen. Confirm punyer.

I'm still wide awake and I don't know why. I end my call with Nazry just now. It was a nice talk with him. And I've pierced my tongue for the second time. Thanks alot :))

Towning later on with Farhan, Zura, Zamir, Nazry and the girls maybe.

I'm not scared of snakes(action tak takot jek, padehal padehal)!! You're the one who is scared of snakes, frogs, lorry balak kalau nak dekat langgar and more! Not only eight tao! HEEEEE! :D

kisses, it's a secret.

2008-11-13T08:26:00.006+08:00

Tuesday head down town. Met up with Leha and her cousin. And the Zura and Deedee. I was not really on good terms with Deedee at that point of time. Because of some reason. Which sucks alot. What to do. But for now, we okay okay only lah! Fernvale with the rest while Zura made her own way to somewhere. I had fun with them, okay lah. Since I don't have the mood after meeting someone which is Deedee, but then it was okay. So that night lovee met up with me only for a little while. Which is now, I'm so badly missing him. Since he's at the chalet with with his friends. I'll meet you up soon k babe? And I'm not sure after his and his friends 'chalet', I'm gonna feel restless like before. Fcuk, I hate that feeling. Really! And I know lovee misses me badly, LOL!

Wednesday was a stay at home. Then Saiful ring me up on the phone and we chatted. And he kept complaining that he was really bored. And then he kept asking me for ciggerattes. So he ride to my block with his bicycle and ride back to Woodlands Circle and met up with Poh Seng. Slack and taiti with the boys and off to Nurul's crib. And don't talk about the taiti game. Someone will eventually get jealous of it, haha! Well, I enjoyed my night with the mates.

Whatever it is, I can't wait for prom night. To dearest Warda, I'm so sorry I'm extending it. Soon okay babe? Because of her, I have my chance of attending prom night!

And I have a date for my prom! My dearest buddy, Teo Poh Seng! Handsome handsome, hot hot heat banget deh!

A dream come true for you, ya right! And a dream come true for me too! Hahaha, I sound so wrong! And the text messages from him was super sweet, really! Ily hotstuff! Muackz muackz!!

d.

2008-11-10T05:00:00.009+08:00

10th Novermber.
5 in the morning
I just had my shower after a room makeover.
Monday Bluesss!
I don't have a Monday blues currently, haha!

Wednesday

Full of shits, I tell you! Seriously! It feels like I just wanna get away from him, that's all! You both wanna say that you guys are tired of my nonsense? Aku lagik penat dengan korang punyer keje bodoh nak mampos lah ehk! Korang buat keje bodoh tu pun, aku ader tak sampai nak marah marah korang macam sial? Tkder sial, tkder.
I don't wanna say tu keje bodoh, cause I know what I've done, so ya. Memang keje bodoh, macam maner korang raser, macam gitu lah aku raser dulu. Taik! Sampaikan orang menangis pasal aku, sampaikan orang marah giler babi dekat aku, sampaikan aku terpakser layankan korang peh bebual. I don't even know who to turn too, except for Mamat. He's the only person I could turn to. I can't even turn to Ajan, Naz, Farhan, Mira, Leha, Deedee, Zura or anyone else, except him. He's been with me all along from night till morning till afternoon. I just wanna thank Mamat alot for all the listening ear, the advices, the stories that you told me all. I appreciate it all!
And I didn't expect Deedee to said such things to me. Whatever it is, we're through. Expect the unexpected, afterall. And ater all those shits happen, the boys and myself head off to Leha's crib and thanks alot sweets:)

Thursday

IyLLiA-NaZrY
Posted 11/6/2008 11:34 am
i'll hold on to u even if i'm hurt....
don do it again k....

and his shout out, a really sweet one too.

"I'll keep holdin on 2 u,love.."

"& I won't let go of it."

It was super sweet of him. And baby, it hurts me alot seeing you crying. I've made such a really huge sacrifices and a promise. And as you can see, each time there's 'invitation' I would always turn them down. Oh well, I can't do anything right?

And so, I head off to lovee's crib and had a little moment with him. The talk was great, how I really wish the talk could be every single day. And back to Leha's crib and took a nap and slack. I took a cab ride home, since I was really really exhausted from don't know what, haha! And the day after....

Friday

A picnic date with lovee. It was such a wonderful date, really. Lovee actually made my day. Actually, my plan for the date was to head down town and search for my dress, for my upcoming prom, then a midnight movie and supper and head off home. But lovee decline. He wants to spend the night away with me at the beach. He meets me up at Admiralty at the bus stop infront of my block and bus ride to Tampines. And off to East Coast. Ate dinner at Pastamania and jalan to Ecp. And bought ourselves a bottle of Absolut Raspeberry which cost nearly fifty-two bux. Damn! What I really wanted was only two cans of Amsterdam. He sets up the tent, while I keep on taking puffs, texting my friends and forgets that he needs a helping hand, lol! We spend...Okay he spend the night drinking while I only drank a little, since I don't like drinking that much now. If lovee happens to read what I wrote just now, cnfem dier fkir laen pyr. And so we played 21kinckers, punyer lah kekek, and mcm taik kao tahu tak taik? Uh sial, mcm sial! Bukan game, orang dier! We chat, we played games, we drink, and keep on doing something fun! And eventually the sunrise was a little bit different. The videos taken in the tent was fucking hilarious! That's why I keep on saying that the date was extremely great! Hahahah! Packed up and cab ride to Fernvale and slack while lovee head off home slightly earlier and then cabbed ride home. Exhausted!
Okay, I have tan legs, tan body. And my face getting darker, haha! Anak keling! No no! Latin latin gitu la! LOL!

a die die must watch video! hahaha!

Sunday

"Mepek!i sntiase ingat u la.."

"Oke wifey!hahahx! Mwahx!"

Lovee had plans with his friends to his friends pit celebrating someone's birthday, so yeah. And I had plans with mummy. To IKEA, and shop for our stuff, I mean for mine and lil sis room. We bought alot of stuff and I was the only one carrying it most of the time, saket tao badan ku! And after shop, mummy wanted to head down Simpang Bedok for dinner, tapi leceh ngan barang2, so we head off to Causeway Point and bought a can filled with pink paint. A cute colour though, but I don't like pink, since the stiff for our room was pink and green. In my head was red and black! Red is a must, tapi tak kesampaian!

After hours of spending time on it.
We end it all at four plus in the morning.
A simple room makeover, haha!
Well, at least mummy says it's pretty. *keningnaeknaek*
Konon mcm bgos uh tu. Hahah!

The bottle doesn't consist any liquid in it. It only consist of crushed paper of lovee's name and my name in it and our picture in it together.

And guess what a few minutes ago, I was like a crazy female warrior! Carrying a sleeping bag and an angry face! Because of a stupid ugly insect mengacau aku! Geli tao!

The video which lovee and Zamir jadi katak ker itik.

It was really fun being your so call 'wifey' for a day! And I'm glad you do too, baby.
Make it more next time. I so love it:)

will update more, loveeeeeeeees.

2008-11-07T03:33:00.001+08:00

I'm extremely sorry for what happen.
Really, I am.
:'(

free,

2008-11-05T16:35:00.004+08:00

I wanna let go of you.

I just wanna stay away from you.
I wanna forget about you.
I wanna call our friendship off.
But it seems so hard.

I just want you to forget the past,
forget the things we have been through together,
forget the things we had done before,
forget every single thing
& me.

I didn't expect things to turn out this way. I've let go of him, but he asked, "u sure u wanna call if off?" I was like...as I know that my reaction was priceless, cause I still do have this feelings for him. He was being rude to me, but it's okay. Like I said I'm so tired to entertain his nonsense but I just have too. So he did continue texting him. And he came down and slack for a little while. Bus ride to Admiralty. The walk to the bus stop was such a quiet one. Well, what do you expect. It's like we're just met each other.

He came over and firstly I don't even know how to face him. I act as if everything's okay. I don't wanna have a harsh night with him though. At that point of time, I was thinking that the feelings stuff should put it aside. And I even text someone up,"I dont know how to talk to him".

I teared after the night spending with him. He saw it, I guess. He stared into my eyes, all I could do is to control myself and continue hugging him. He doesn't like me going out at night and coming back only when the sun rises up. I like the feeling of being with my friends, I like the feeling of being outside with the love ones. I like the feeling of laughing my ass out with my friends. I like the feeling of enjoying outside!

I don't like the feeeling of you not letting me to go out at nights and be back only when the sun rises. I don't like the feeling of you not letting me not being with my friends. All I want now is free from everything! That's all!

I'll update more.
Town with Nazry today, I guess.

It's good to be alone, somtimes.

2008-11-03T17:04:00.003+08:00

Eventually, boys just don't know when to stop. Or maybe, make it stop. They're just the same creature as us. Their humans, we female(s) are humans too. Can't they just stop making something fragile from breaking. Sometimes in this breaking situation, it may leads to consequences. And boys don't exactly think of the consequences. That's bad huh? Well, to me it's really bad though.

".......whr were u wen i needed u?u wasnt dere..u ckp tu u syg?i was damn worried bout u wen u were outside expecting u tok balek n kol i sak u..tp u ttp dgil..i mntak bende kcik je seh u...............telalu pentingkan diri sendirik sampekan org yg btol2 sygkan u ni u tarok tepi..i love u so much u tau tak..but since uve given up.. I tk bley wat pape..thnks eh Kurniasih 4 evritink"

I've made such a nasty decision without thinking twice and so on. Because I am already tired and so sick of it. Into arguments, about the same thing. And about me? He would find my fault through my boy friends. Texting, meeting up and even slacking. Wtf? Like what Farhan said to me, we're still new to each other. I don't know why I'm not sure whether I've made a really good decision or a really not so good decision. I'm lost. Like I say before, I've made such a nasty decision. Well Nazry, I've given up on you and it took so much of time. Days and nights and lastly you agree to it. You're free to do whatever you want. Thank you so much & you're welcome:)

"whr were u when i really need u when i was at the chalet? dont tell me i shld just stick at home. I prefer being at the chalet with adek n her friends laughing my ass off. Rather than sticking at home alone. I was waiting for ur call ur msges at that point of time. But no avail. I was really worried for u, tpi u tk tahu, i diam jek. I even call ajan up asking asking hows u and all. I was farking worried for god sake. Bdk2 sume tyr ask aku stress, aku diam jek sia. U were out there hapily w ur friends. I was out there just slacking, nt doing anything stupid. Well, ure free to do anything u want now.."

NOW! Throw me some Hula&Co., Topshop's lingerie, Volcom bagpack, W350i Walkman phone, Ben & Jerry's cookie dough, Cotton On shorts, Forever's tee and go go bangles(LOL!) & of course Starbucks Chocolate Cream Chip and oreo cheesecake & Chili Crab. And I want Flesh Imp voucher please! I'll get well soon, I promise. I should dream on, I think.

Get myself ready and off to town, bye!

2008-11-01T18:07:00.006+08:00

oh that guy friend, yang suker saket kan hati.
I don't know why I'm still sticking with him, hahaha!

Thanks alot to lil sis friends. To Farid and Sophiah thanks for inviting and thanks for the food and fun, of course. And to all her friends, it's been such a wonderful time with all of them, really I swear! I may not know them real much and some not at all!, but the three days two nights with them was not a waste at all!! It makes me think that they're a nice and fun bunch of people to hang out with. And running through my mind is that how I really hope the fun with them shan't stop yesterday. Whatever it is, thanks real real alot. And the 'see-it-with-your-own-eye' thingy, was really scary at the chalet. Kalau aku laki, bola dah dekat tekak siol!

And soooo, yesterday drinking session was cancelled as I was too lazy. And the ride thingy was cancelled too, cause I wasn't in the mood. And someone makes me really upset. And I was like a sotong, eventually I was mad at him. But I just don't know why that I was still on the phone with him. I was being bitch, though. PSP turns out to entertain me much much much better than talking to him on the phone when I'm angry at him. Hahahahah!

And to this someone uh(bkn nak busok-busok kan ker aper uh, i'm just being true),
"Nazry, sometimes you do sucks alot. I'm being true. & please cut your craps lah, aku penat, bodoh!"

Countless
It's countless to recall how much you have really hurt me, makes me upset, make me cry just because of you and of course anger.
It's countless to count how much chances I have given you, really.
It's countless to recall how much I have given up on you, but you just don't want too.

Think
It's not to hard to think what is right and what is wrong actually. Unless that person means nothing to you at all. You shall not think of anything at all. Which is ME, thanks.
And if you use your fucking brain and think, I would not make your life harder, just to go through our stupid conversations.
And if you think, don't you think that you had me on enough?

N, I just need the time of my own, really. I had enough of the shit(s) you're creating. I'm really really sick and tired of it. Firstly after the broke up and coming back together again I didn't expect things to turn out this way but then I have expect things to turn out this way each time........ only you know what it is. Only God knows when I'm gonna feel restless again.

"Ok la org tk wat lgie...sorry sgt2 tau u..i tk bermksod nk wat u mara or sdih.."

Action actually do speak louder than words, sweetheart. It's good enough that I still do call you sweetheart. I shall not dwell on it.
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"okey. .nmpk nye ko da mls nk lyn kn. .it's fine 4 me. .take care bye!"

Ain't that rude if your very own bestfriend who you care alot for says that to you when you yourself cares alot for your friendship with him or her which you think you want it to last forever? Well, I shall not post it here, what it is about. BUT WHATEVER IT IS, I THINK IT'S RUDE! And this very bestfriend of mine, wants to meet me today. And sooo, there's gonna be tears here and there! Okay, I need to get myself ready since Ajan suro cpt2.

And taggers keep the comments rolling in. K go!

p.s Boys sucks.

2008-10-29T17:40:00.007+08:00

Macam ader neon neon thingy going on. Macam Zouk, you know. heh!

p.s I'll upload the rest soon.

Last Friday,
I head down Fernvale. Supposingly I asked Yuszaini to hang out with me but I made my way to Fernvale and slack with the boys. Then to Ajan's crib and aku memandai web cam dengan kawan dier, Alep I guess. So in the crib with Farhan, Mamat and Ajan. Then entah macam maner tah ni Iyllia masok rumah pun tak tahu. Member terkejot semacam, haha! I was referring it to Ajan actually. I didn't asked Nazry to send me all the way to the bus stop can't I don't feel like I want too. Cause for sure, there's gonna be alot of questions from him. I just need the time of my own, that's all. Fikiran uh, I don't why. I've not being myself this days, really.

".......i wont take d responsibility sak...phm tk?..........caner pn i tkkn lpaskn.."

"......psl i syg u la i tk kesah pape bende problem yg u ade..u, i btol2 syg u seh........."

Saturday,
with my family at a cousin's wedding and my auntie's friend wedding I think, haha. And then head off to Cik Yunos place, which was my cousins uncle. So yeah.. Did some of karaoke-ing, lol. And my karaoke patner, Syazwan wasn't there since he was working. Actually today, now!, Sunday morning I was suppose to head down Fernvale and spend the morning there and maybe at Ajan's crib. But I was being extremely lazy, so perhaps tomorrow or maybe not. Currently I'm on the phone with Nazry, he kept talking, asking, saying the same thing. About something, privacy uh. I don't know what the hell get into him. Well, I just have to keep listening to it. Lol! I can't simply remember how I spend my Sunday.

So on Monday lovee had plans with his friends. Supposingly I had plans with this someone but I know something will be very wrong if I go out with this person. Cause I still do think about you, your feelings and your whatsoever, not like you asshole. Then movie was canceled.

So Tuesday which was yesterday, we spend it on movie. There's lovee, Zamir, Leha, Zura, Ajan & Afiq. We catched High School Musical 3 at Vivo City. And like forever, I'm always the last to arrive. The movie was fantastic, I love it. I'll make sure I'll watch it again. And Zac, you're such a hot hot heat. And Gabriella Montez/Vanessa Hudgens is the sweetest bitch:) Oh yeah, I so love the part where they all got together during their graduation! It's awesome, totally. LOL! I saw Deedee at Admiralty and slack with him till morning and thanks for the cab ride home sweetheart. And it's been long since I've meet and slack with my very own bestfriend. And I love the sitting down and chat and there's alot of stories he told me. And I mean, alot. Stories about lovee, his girlfriend, his family, his friend and lovee friends and much much more we talked about.

As for today I'm heading down to a chalet. I don't call it a chalet, just say it's a bunglow. I really hope I'm gonna have fun there. Oh well, I need to get myself ready. Lovee punyer lah memekak suroh siap sekarang. Padehal boleh pegi malam! And dier cakap aku taik lagik. Ni uh dier punyer kurang ajar. So I will update pretty pretty soon aite?

loves.

2008-10-26T00:47:00.004+08:00

my heartbeat.

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Happy 16th Bithday to the dearest,

Warda!

cute kan dier? haha