I'm at home, changed into a new blog skin. I'm bored, very very bored, bored to death. And Haziq is busy playing games. Haha. I really got nothing to blog about. Okay. So eventually Farhan wanted to meet me up since he got something to talk about. Like seriously I have no idea. I guess its about school.

Someone even told me something,
"Lau adk syg org tu deeply, it wun fade away.."

I guess I said something wrong. The main thing here is he's unlike him. He would usually call me up asking this and that. But then he's been keeping quiet for three days now, so yeah. I think I need to make a decision here and he does too. I just can't simply keep quiet. I just need reasons. Surely he have his own reason right? And I've been feeling restless this days. And whoever who hates me, would confirm be laughing his/her ass off. I wouldn't admit this is the relationship I wanted.

I'm just yearning for the old us.
the YOU who would call me up asking me such questions and put down the phone.
the YOU who would want to meet me and say that you really misses me much.
the YOU who show care and concern.
the YOU who would shower me love.
the YOU who would even treat me nicely even when I disobey and throw you attitudes.
the YOU who would pamper me. (& im spoilt)
the YOU who would defend me when you fought with someone(s) over such matters.
the YOU who would never fail to make me smile and be happy.
&
the YOU who build me up in the first place after so long of unhappy past.

You give me wonders. I have no words to describe it actually. I just miss that simple few things, that's all. I just need your reason, that's all I'm asking for. Whatever it is, I'm not expecting you to return to your old lifestyle, and you even said that you changed just because of me. And I mark your words. I still remember it. I believe it. And you even said something about people around you in the past, I still remember it.

Forget about it, I just need get myself clean now.
Having dinner with Wan later on at Tampines, if I have the appetite.
ciao homies!