I just wanna stay away from you.
I wanna forget about you.
I wanna call our friendship off.
But it seems so hard.
I just want you to forget the past,
forget the things we have been through together,
forget the things we had done before,
forget every single thing
& me.
I didn't expect things to turn out this way. I've let go of him, but he asked,
"u sure u wanna call if off?" I was like...as I know that my reaction was priceless, cause I still do have this feelings for him. He was being rude to me, but it's okay. Like I said I'm so tired to entertain his nonsense but I just have too. So he did continue texting him. And he came down and slack for a little while. Bus ride to Admiralty. The walk to the bus stop was such a quiet one. Well, what do you expect. It's like we're just met each other.
He came over and firstly I don't even know how to face him. I act as if everything's okay. I don't wanna have a harsh night with him though. At that point of time, I was thinking that the feelings stuff should put it aside. And I even text someone up,
"I dont know how to talk to him".I teared after the night spending with him. He saw it, I guess. He stared into my eyes, all I could do is to control myself and continue hugging him. He doesn't like me going out at night and coming back only when the sun rises up. I like the feeling of being with my friends, I like the feeling of being outside with the love ones. I like the feeling of laughing my ass out with my friends. I like the feeling of enjoying outside!
I don't like the feeeling of you not letting me to go out at nights and be back only when the sun rises. I don't like the feeling of you not letting me not being with my friends. All I want now is free from everything! That's all!
I'll update more.
Town with Nazry today, I guess.