Everything is going smoothly for me right now, haha. Actually not that smooth. As there are some things lingering on my mind. But I did said to Nazry through messages just now while I was on the way back home. Okay yesterday I spent my night at Fernvale dengan due orang giler, yang boleh buat korang ketawer terbahak bahak. Hahaha, Ajan and Mamat. They spent the night with me, thanks ehk. Deedee went home early as he had school the next day. The block to block counter strike with both of them was really really hilarious. Sampai nangis nagngis sak, haha. Mamat and Ajan ah. The off to playground and they keep watching Mok's video and making fun of it. And of to the gym corner and we sat there making up stupid jokes. And Mamat punyer teka teki punyer lah kekek! Cute sak diorang.

Yeah, I did have the intention to head down school just now, but I was really tired. And I reached home around seven I think. Woke up around five plus and loads and loads of text messages that I had to reply too and loads of miss calls too. -_________- I was really tired and thought of not coming down Fernvale today, Mira and Zura did asked me to head down Sengkang. So I met Deedee at Khatib, punyer lah lambat, okay lah only for forty five minutes, untok bestfriend punyer pasal ah, aku tunggu. Bus ride and saw Nazrul on the bus, so to Fernvale and we talked about China men and women pasal ketiak ngan mulut diorang, haha. Deedee started it all first then Nazrul, haha. Thanks ehk Dee antar aku sampai bus stop, heh! Syg you banyak banyak.

Yesterday, I had a good talk with Deedee. He moved me. Seriously. He knock some sense into me. And we did talked about what I wanted to do all. He did advice me all. "Kalau kao nak buat dengan kao tak pandang orang lain, kao pandang lah aku sebagai bestfriend kao. Aku taknak sak Linsih kao buat bende bodoh ni sumer. In future kao kene fikir jugek. Aku cakap ni sumer pasal aku sayang kan kao. Sumer orang sayangkan kao sak Linsih." Aduh.. I cried non stop with all his words that came out. And ader taik mesti ader lalat, Ajan. Hahaha! He even said that he doesn't want me to do all this stupid stuff. And there's more people who knock some sense into me, the love ones. Mira, Leha, Zura, Wan and all. Zamir and Wan even took the time to hear out my story. Well, they did cheer me up :)

I need to say something about my fernvale friends. I just need to let it all out. It's okay if only out of I dont know how many people only one reads it, seriously.


DEEDEE, my bestest friend ever! He was there to hear out what I have to say and he knows real well what I've been through and he definitely knows how I feel. He was the one who has been knocking some sense into me. He was the one who made me think positively. I just can't lose a nice lad like you, seriously. I know you're really concern and care about me. And you know I love you:)

AJAN, the most annoying yet funny cums bahan kacau (orang), is such a nice lad. He has been there for me through my sad(?) times. And the night after I broke down and cry and he and An were out there trying to find some cash for me. He surely knows how to make me laugh when I'm down. I love you:)

MIRA, my bestest girl. The one who has been comforting me all this while. About the problems, the misunderstandings and whatever shit that I've been through with Nazry. She's there to listen and giving me advice. I really thank you alot for making me and Nazry back together the last time.( The first time we fought over, I can't remember what.) I love you real much baby!

AN, he's also has been there for me lending his ears to hear what I have to say and he knows what I've been through. He did comfort me and gave me hope. I like what he say, 'what goes, comes around.' The night I broke down and cry and I was on the phone with him and Mira. And him trying to find some cahs for me too! I love you lah brother:)

ZAMIR, oh this guy who always care to listen to my problems and what I've been through all this while. He do give out opinions and advices. I love you too lah bro:)

WAN, si Chris Brown ni. Hahaha, I know he do care about me. He's like my elder brother. And he even said that he likes seeing me being together with Nazry. But yet everything is now down the drain. Whatever it is, I love you lah Wan!

MAMAT, I don't share much stuff with him. But he did asked what happen between me and Nazry when we were walking back just the two of us. I did said to him. I didn't expect him to say anything. Oh well, one I love about Mamat is that I love partying with him. Hahaha! I love you. Saying I love you to Mamat is a lil bit uncomfortable, haha! :)

ZURA, the one who comfort me. Well babe, nothing is gonna happen to your family aite? Anything, lending of ears, shoulders to cry on I'll be there for you. And I even try my best to help you aite? I love you:)

LEHA, she lend me her ears and listen to my problems. She do gave me some advices. Even when she is having her hard times with someone she do care to listen. I love you too babe:)

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NAZRY, the one who had my heart broken real real bad. Thanks ehk! Really ah thanks alot seh! What I have to say is that I really regret meeting and I really really regret loving you and putting high hopes on you. I thought you're someone different now, but yet you're not. You're still the same. I know I don't have the right to say this. But well, as you can see I remember you saying "pompuan mcm gini blh percayer ker?" I think I should say to anyone ah, "laki mcm kao blh percayer ker?" That's more like it. Sorry ah you! But you see, you have not know me that well, so you don't even have the right to say that to me. Cermin diri sendiri! But I do thank you alot for every thing ah. Thanks for giving me hope, okay ah boleh ah. Thanks for the love. Eventhough you didn't even love me once. Thanks for being there for me. Thanks for sacrificing yourself for me. Thanks for the relationship, because of the relationship I commit myself to commitment and because of commitment AND you I slowly stopped my drinking habit and partying. As what I texted you earlier on on how we were before we became an item. You know I miss that. I can't really say that I love you as a friend cause now I do have my hard times accepting you as a friend. I'm so sorry if what I have stated here is such a nuisance rather than the pleasure one(s). I'm sorry.

L: "I miss u, okay2 ah., i miss us. I nak mcm dulu before u ngan i jadi matair."
N: "U nk cam dulu sblm kte matair...? i sembarang..."

OKAY, I got swimming session with the boys later on in the evening, haha.
will update more, bye:)