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Tuesday, March 18, 2008 3/18/2008 04:48:00 pm
please i beg you.
Afternoon. I didn't attend school for two days now. I don't have the mood and I simply feeling low and miserable. I repeated the same fucking mistake two times. Okay the mistakes I've made is that, argh forget about it. It's kinda sick and heartbroken. But this time round, I was forced by an asshole. I was forced okay! So as you can see Alif can't seem to forgive me at all. I know someone out there who hate me must be laughing his/her ass off about it huh. We wouldn't know unless they say it. Anyway I'm feeling really low. I need someone to talk too. I need to meet you up eventhough how much you hate me. I still do love you much, even if your love for me has fade. Sorry is just a word, like you say. All I could do is is kneel down and beg you to forgive me. I need to gain your trust and make you feel special. But I just can't accept the fact that you want me to forget about you, just like that. I'm shocked. Alif, you have been loving me for three staright months, so am I. I can't simply forget about you just like that. I've put high hopes on you and I trust you alot, that's why I'm heartbroken. I know you are too, but.. I really don't know what to say anymore. And one more thing, I'm stupid right? That's what your friend called, 'stupid'. I admit I'm stupid but he doesn't have the right to call me that. Even my parents didn't call me that. I'm such a loser. I'm not trying to gain someone sympathy or what ehk, I'm telling it out cause I feel like teling it out. I really hope one day I could gain your trust and put high hopes on me that I'm always here for you. And ya, for your sake I even cancelled my plans for this coming Saturday party. Even if you let me go, common lah you would definitely think negative. You even say that I should stop all this clubbing activities and drinking habits, I could just for you. That's how much I love you. Ya, I should prove you wrong sooner or later, by sticking at home all day long not going out at nights and all. Wouldn't you be proud if I'm like that? Sure you're gonna be over the world that I'm gonna be like that. Right ALIF? Anyway I'm sorry if I'm being to ego or what but you see I'm just telling.
will update more. .JPG) and anyway happy three months friendship. it's gone bad to worst. Labels: love is gone.
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