go get yourself fucked with electro shits, ℓ's.

Friday, August 31, 2007 8/31/2007 09:04:00 pm

butterflies make my day.

Hello loves. Around one plus morning, Faizal did give a call &says whether wanna hang out. So yeah, I also did return his helmet back, so that he could give his so call 'girlfriend' a ride. &oh yeah, he got himself a new girlfriend, that bitch! =D hahax, heck care. I was quite a lil bit jealous &sad. But I'm alright now. Thanks to the lovelies who make my day. We did not talk much on that morning, which is today. We were like keeping real real quite, since nobody wanna talk. Anyway he looks really kinda sad &guilty(i think) and he don't even wanna speak up even when I asked him too. -____-"

Teacher's day was such a bore. But the outing with the freaks &butterflies was awesome! I loved it. We were like having lunch &met up with the hotstuff, Poh Seng.(PS: He's hot, totally!) huahua, &yeah, waited for Andy(Little cute pai-kia, hahax) &Wei Kang for like one fucking hour. -_-" So at last we reached town. Wheelock to Borders, Far East to this turkish restaurant, Heeren to everywhere, lol. &yeah, thnaks alot to Teo Poh Seng the hotstuff who treat us for the ice creams! We loved it so much. The turkish guy was so hilarious. We were like scattered everywhere, laughing out loud. Lol.

Those butterflies sure make my day. I love them so much.

PS: I'm in love with someone, but he's someone. FYI, it's not Faizal. -_-"

"I know that you do have something to tell me, but you just don't wanna speak up. &I do have things to say to you, but I just don't have the guts."

Thursday, August 30, 2007 8/30/2007 03:47:00 am

whatever!

3:10am in the morning, &I'm not feeling that hyper, cause I'm really having headache. A bad one.

Anyway work sucks for today. That fucking dearestFaizal was working &I don't even have the mood to have a look at his fucking face. It irks me alot. I did not went to school &some more I punched in two hours late for work, cause I woke up pretty pretty late. But I did end early, lol. &I was like waited for those freaks(Eko&Fitri) to end their work. &yeah the fucking dearestFaizal came in the crew room to have a little little conversation.

Faizal's:
"Dah bis keje lom?"
Linsih's:
"Dah abis makan pun lah giler!"
Faizal's:
"Oh okayys, biler mahu kluar lagik gang?"
Linsih's:
"Biler nak ambik helmet balik, so you could give that bitch a ride?"
Faizal's:
"Buat aper nak kluar ngan dier tu? Taknak lah, malas nak layan dier."
Linsih's:
"Macam paham! You like her what &some more you love entertaining her!"
(suddenly grabs his hands.)
Faizal's:
"You masih sukerkan I?"
Linsih's:
(walked away, while tears are nearly rolling down the cheeks)

Oh yeah, I did told the fucking dearest Faizal, that I went out with Fadhli. He was a lil bit angry &yeah he don't talk to me that much. cause he say's that I'm angry at him some how. Like durh! I'm not angry with that fucktard or what. It's just that I felt really really dissapointed after seeing him changing after he met that fucking biatch at the restaurant. Only today that bitch smiles at me while I was rushing to punch in for work.*roll eyes*
Anyway teachers day will be this coming Friday &we're gonna have Be Yourself Day and I freaking don't know what to where since the theme occupation is-office. -___-"
Will update more.

Oh yes, he's(fucking dearestFaizal) commencing that he ain't a playboy. When did I say he was? -____-" lol.
FYI I still do have feelings for him, eventhough I'm a lil bit dissapointed.

PS: Thanks alot babe Leena, i love you so much. Thanks for the encouragement. =] ily.

"You could be happy, I won't know."

Adious!

Labels: he ain't a playboy, i know that. but he's changing over something nonsencial after he met that bitch in the restaurant.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007 8/29/2007 06:47:00 am

mistaken love, had i know how to save a life.

I don't have the mood to go to school for today cause he ruins my fucking day with a fucking stupid message that he had send me. It's a really stupid message. A really dumb one. But if you're in my shoes, you should know how I felt. Waking up early in the morning after a tired day out &waking up with a dumb message and let your tears roll down you cheeks.

::To be really honest that fucking guy is the dearestFaizal.

The Faizal who love &cares for me.
..who is always there for me when I'm in need.
..who always wakes me early in the morning just to have a go out together.
..who always makes my day.
..who always keen enough to spend the day with me.
..who always calls me up every single morning waking me up for school.
there's loads of it.

It was such a heartbreak seeing him changing in just a single night after he met that fucking bitch at the restaurant. For god sake, he's someone's &flirting with someone. I told ya that he was attached, &yeah he sure do loves this biatch around him so damn much. Just damn much. Couldn't resisist the temptation of having many girls. Do you just like understand whats the meaning of love? You're such a big fat liar &an asshole! You can't just like telling me lies every single time right, you mother*toot*? Why can't you just like be honest, the old you, just the old you who is really honest? You're really disgusting. I really felt like an idiot(really like a fucking idiot!) loving him wholeheartedly &cared for him. I don't ask much from him. I'm just searching, wanting back the old him, that's all.
I don't eager for any boyfriend or what is just that I'm missing the old bestfriend that I have. =(
People often says this, "what goes around, comes around." But I don't believe it.
To me, "what goes around, comes around, but it does not comes around unless someone's ruins it." thats mine.
It's okayy, if that someone doesn't know what that means or do not believe it. But it's my point of view, so heckcare.
I have mistaken love for the second time, to be honest.

Anyway yesterday was quite a wonderful night out with Fadhli to East Coast. He's such a sweet guy. Maybe one day he could be someone who I really loved. =D lol.
We had dinner at East Coast Lagoon, hahax I had kway teow goreng =DD &yeah the night was wonderfull. But something stupid is just lingering on my mind. I got work this evening &I don't like seeing his face &those bitches.*roll eyes*
Till here.

"Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend. Somewhere along in the bitterness. And I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known how to save a life."

Tuesday, August 28, 2007 8/28/2007 03:45:00 pm

he's changing over something nonsencial.

Anyway hello, yesterday(27/08) I must turn up for work, but I was too tired. abg Yusmir did send me a message &reminds me always. So sweet of him. And yeah I did plan to have a go-out-together with Fadhli to East Coast yesterday too, so I cancled it. I was too tired after a hefty day at school &did not sleep the whole night coz I was to hyper, lol.
Anyway yesterday, as were watching this Phua Chu Kang video, dear Faizal called. Dear Faizal was such in a so call 'stress mood'. He's stressing out about his bike &this thing(idk what does it call). So we did quarrel about something personal=[ But we did apologise to each other.
As for today, I was having headache the whole morning &it was a really bad one. I feel like having a nap eventhough I slept the whole day yesterday. As for today, I'm having a day off to have the go-out-together after Fadhli ends his work at seven o'clock. We're going East Coast to have dinner, &its his treat, lol.
Oh yeah, anyway happy birthday to Kak Dila(Hanif's gf) &happy birthday in advance to Yiyun jiejie. =DD

I'm feeling quite low. Someone's changing &I hate that. I really do like, loves &care for him. But this is just isn't the right time to changed. &someone new is entering my life. I just couldn't forget about the past that we have been through together eventhough your "someone's". Those kisses, hugs &enjoyment that you have brought me very single day had faded just like that. I felt really confused after loving you wholeheartedly &you're changing over something nonsencial. I really do hate the way you are now. I'm like searching for the old you &wanting to change you back to the old 'you'. I'm really missing the old days where we head to towns, the dam &the Esplanade in the morning eventhough you're tired.
I really felt like an idiot.
=[

"If I lay here, if I just lay here. Would you lie here with me &just forget the world?"

PS: He's changing. =[

Sunday, August 26, 2007 8/26/2007 11:51:00 am

such a pain.

It seems I been hating someone just yesterday, I seriously hate that guy! He such a bitch! He's a pain in the ass. He's someone who works at my place &he's a rider.
Anyway it's been long since updated. Yeah, yesterday morning I woke up around seven plus to spend the morning with Faizal till late evening. It was a so called 'funny' day for the both of us. We watched DVD's &he cracks up stupid jokes &his 'sleeps'. Oh yeah, before I reached his house, it was like a terrible morning at Woodlands Mart &good morning wih the cab driver. The cab driver was an Indian guy. He was such an hilarious one. Anyway, we watched Blades of Glory, another hilarious one, lol. He was like laughing all the way. We sure do have loads of fun, too bad, we're both working in the evening.
Today(26/08), supposingly should be going to Natrisha's(natinoh) elder sister(Natalia Natinoh) wedding, since Fayeezah's not going, I'm not going. It's gonna be such a bore. So maybe heading to work later or a stay home.
-_____-"
Skin will be temporary using this one, =DD
Till here.

You're such a bitch, you know that? I thought by loving you wholeheartedy would make you feel loved. But you're someone's &you're flirting with someone. You's such a pain in the ass. I fucking seriously hate you, but it seems like I'm missing you each time I think about you, &I mean every single seconds. It really breaks my heart seeing you the way you are yesterday. And yeah fucktard, you're such a pain!

FYI, I knew it from abg Rafit. He told me so.
You asked for it, you Mother*toot*.
Argh, I fucking hate you!

Sunday, August 19, 2007 8/19/2007 06:02:00 am

i love you, sweetheart

It's like 6:02 in the morning &I just did came back from outing with dear Faizal, Hafiz &Nikita(hafiz's gf). It was whole loads of fun yaw. I love the morning so much. We had loads of fun &stuff. And yeah, those freaks were like teasing the guys on bikes on how they seat &how they ride. They make jokes out of it. But before that, work sucks alot man. Work sucks my energy out from me &I was like the last person to go back, how sial is that, lol. And yeah, I was like paitao those freaks for an hour, just to get myself ready, lol.
Anyway I'll hope that this coming Tuesday I'm gonna make myself &dear Faizal free, just the two of us together, I hope so. =[ Please be free sweetheart?
Later than Hafiz &his Nikita went back slightly earlier since his Nikita is working in the morn. So, chat around with the dearest Faizal of course, lol. I loved him so much lah okayy. While we were like teasing those mat rempit, he did ask me something, it's kinda sweet &it's quite hurtful. But the answer was just not there. =[
We grab some bites &chat, &so here I am after returning from those lovely outings with freaks, lol.
Working at five in the evening &should get some rest, while dearest starts at six in the evening end at five in the morning, how pitiful is that. =[
Hahax, anyway daddy just bought us a new computer. How sweet of him.
acer, high speed lor, huahua. =]

***I'm freaking missing Ellen Degeneres show! There's no more. How pathetic is that. PIG -___________-'

=[

Till here.

"Boy, each time the kisses &hugs from you was terribly awwesome, but I seriously love you for who you are, not because of what of you have. &yes, I'm really really falling in love with you right now. You're my second love &you caught my eye from the beginning. Please repeat the particular question that you asked me &I would give you the answer, cause I really do know it now."

=]

Sunday, August 12, 2007 8/12/2007 06:21:00 am

awesome esplanade

Yeah, the outing to Esplanade was hell hell yeah man! I loved it.

Anyway today, I mean yesterday(11 Aug) was suppose to work but I did not turn up, so I did went out with Husayn, the freaking tall guy to town. He's cute, really. I'm starting to loved him more as a friend. =] So we were like walking here &there searching for the perfect stuff that I wanted, lol. But ending up buying the lil sis a Topshop sleeveless since she wanted it so bad. =]
He crack up jokes &interupting the 'banglas' when they were talking. He's funny. &he's freaking freaking tall. Huahua. I love the day out with him. Sooner or later I will be meeting you aite sweets? &yeah on the way home, Andy the awesome/great movie patner was in the same bus. Huahua, I missed him real real bad hor, &I know he misses me too, in the messages that he wrote, lol. Pathetic sak Linsih.

Anyway yeah today(12 Aug) we went out to Esplanade around one plus morning after a rush home from town with Husayn. I really loved it okayy? There was dear Faizal, Hafiz &his so call 'scandal' huahua. So we did chilled out there, talking shits &Faizal is a dumb ass. He cracks jokes that really making my tummy ache, lol. He sure rock my ass! Hahax. Then were freaking hungry so we head off to 'Madina'(the coffee shop along Sembawang there, huahua.) to have our breakfast there. So is was whole loads of fun. Anyway I'm really tired after walking the whole City Hall &the ride on a bike for thirty minutes. I wanna have some sleep to get to work!

Till here.
=]

'Oh boy the outing was great I did have have fun with you &boy the kisses and hugs from you was terribly awesome &I'm starting to like you more and I think I'm falling in love with you. Could you be mine?'

PS: The second picture he looks really 'okayy-okayy' lah. Huahua. -____-'

Friday, August 10, 2007 8/10/2007 11:13:00 pm

loved it

As for today we planned to watch a movie with the best movie patner ever, Andy. As for Poh Seng he will joined us for lunch. So the plan was cancel. And we did plan to have a go out together with Faizal, since he forgotten it so did I.
And the cute tan girlfriend, Shafiza message me. We did shopping, trying outs &finding the stupid damn POSB machine around Bugis -__-' hahax, it was loads of fun. It's been lyke six, eight month past since I met her. I totally missed her so much. Damn much. Huahua. She did her search, so did I. She was searching for jeans, huahua. Lol.
Anyway I bought myself a black skinny jeans &Little Miss Lucky tee. ;) She picked it for me. How cute! hahax. Anyway we were like the cutest ever, walking here &there. But before that, I met up with Iqmal, the long-time-didnt-meet friend. I can say that I miss his stupid lame joke. Huahua.
Anyway I'm looking forward for tomorow! Yeah!

Till here loves,
bye.

=]

Thursday, August 09, 2007 8/09/2007 04:25:00 pm

yeah

Like I usually say, hell yeah for today. Ending work around 2330 &the store was closing down as, there were cleaning up the place for some reasons. I mean the entire store including the stove and grilling stuff. So we did have fun that night[080807].And well Azhar was so funny so is the rockstar, Hilmi. We did have fun.
So later that morning dear Faizal &his cousin were heading to the dam, so he did call me up. But I prefer going out later later. Lol. I did went out around one plus morning[090807, anyway happy birthday Singapore!] after having a nice &funny chat with Hilmi &Izzat, the handsome guy. Huahua. Banyak mat rempit. Anyway, we were like turning our heads her left to right from right to left. &came this friend of dear Faizal, he was hot &handsome too. &he's cute too. Well, the morning was hell yeah so is the ride &talks. I loved it. So dear Faizal send me to somewhere, and we did chat alot &were like laughing out loud where people around are still asleep, who cares. Huahua.
But its kind of sad, since it was raining in the morning &he had to went back late. =[

I wonder what is happening at SingFest! I really do wanna go, too bad it's over. =[
Anyway I wanna be ready for work.
Till here.

lovess. =]

PS: Boy, I'm in love with you so much, could you just tell me when could I tell the whole world that you're mine?

Wednesday, August 08, 2007 8/08/2007 02:48:00 am

Changed the blogskin &I loved it very much. Did not rack the brain up though, huahua. Anyway Yusman, thanks for the concern. We did met up for a little while, cause I thought of him buying for me medicines as I'm really really sick having flu, fever &coughing at the same time. -___-'

PS: Sick bustard[NOT ME HOR, LOL.]

Sunday, August 05, 2007 8/05/2007 04:23:00 pm

sick

The morning(050807) was hell yeah. I was like ending my work around ten plus &was texting dear Faizal and was asking out again. We did met up for a while and later on he was really hungry we did went out again to have our supper around three plus in the morning, but I did finished the O.C series. Lol! And he was really cute, wearing his Umbro bermudas &Adidas t-shirt. Lol! I just loved spending time with him. But I prefer to be in the morning. ;DD huahua.
Anyway we went to have supper and we were like cracking up stupid jokes &stuff. He was really funny. ;D I don't even know why do I love hanging out with him, siao hor. Lol! And yeah, we did went to the dam again. Lol, it was whole loads of fun hor. Mat rempit mesti ader. Lol. Huahua, anyway I'm really really sick. I'm feverish, coughing, having flu &body aching for the past two days. Argh, I wanna go to the doctor.

Till here people.
:]

lovee-lovee. ;DD

Friday, August 03, 2007 8/03/2007 02:07:00 am

-____-

"How can I just stop thinking about you? You just kept appearing into my mind. Wherever I am, you are there. It feels like I do wanna be your's, but could you be mine? I do really like you so much. Even though we have nothing in common except as friends, but each time we hug &we kissed each other, I'm starting to like you more &more. But oh boy, please let your heart out. Do not get yourself uptight. I know that you like me, but something is really really blocking the way. How I really wish I would have known you earlier then. Anyway one is enough. Don't be such a greedy little pig. -_-"

A short video of a student in ITE Simei, he was doing his modern &contemporary dance.

:]

Thursday, August 02, 2007 8/02/2007 03:27:00 pm

great great great

Well today is Thursday I did attend school as I was overslept. But boo, I do really wanna come! As the form teacher is treating us to Pizza and some stuff that they have thing about. I really do wanna come today! Argh. Anyway Faizal did message me around one in the morning and was asking whether wanna go out. It was really bored before then. So he did picked me up &we went to Yishun dam. The morning was great, totally awesome! I loved it so much. &we did make a deal to go out with each other every week. Lol. Maybe next week he will be riding me to Esplanade. Huahua, in the morning, of course. But it's a really bad habit of going out ¬ sleeping cause you know that you have to go to school. -______-'
But who cares, just enjoy yourself. :]
Anyway tomorow will be Friday &we're heading off to ITE Simei. There will be this fiesta thingy going on there. It's sure gonna be fun. But the guys won't be coming. :[ But I'm sure Warda &me will find that hot guy!(Izzat) He says that he gonna be performing, but I don't what will be performing ler. Anyway I do hope it's gonna be fun, whole loads of fun.

Anyway till here.
:]

PS: I loved it!

The outing together was great &I loved it. But boy, how could I really really just say that I'm yours.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007 8/01/2007 05:22:00 am

fuck care

Anyway I've been thinking of deleting the tagboard. It seems really distracting. Sooner or later I will be deleting it. I'm gonna be 'spending' time with someone tonight.

Will update soon.

&I think I liked someone.
Some one from somewhere, lol.

it's not Faizal. -________-'!
It's obviously he got a girlfriend. So forget about it.

Anyway the talk with Husayn(i EqUaL mUsiC) was great &funny. He was like making me laugh all the way okay. And my bulging stomach hurts so much. Lol!

"You should not have made a promise to me, unless you know that you could make it come true. And being the one kept inside feels really bad. And boy, how I wish I could tell the whole world that I'm yours. But after you made those empty yet stupid promises, I felt really disappointed. Sooner or later we're not gonna be together or keeping in touch with each other, cause I know one day it shall turn out that way. And boy, I don't give a fuck about you no more, cause I know I'm not your's and by the way, I have already found someone new."