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Tuesday, October 02, 2007 10/02/2007 01:11:00 am
only you knows it.
 Well hello there I've just reached home from, anyway Sunday headed Geylang with Wanie &Leena sayang, Fuad &his cousins. Okayy, we had dinner at this coffeshop and it's like seriously, eeeww. The place was disgusting, lols. But I was really hungry, as I was fasting okayy. Geylang to Kampun melayu met with the lil imp &her friend &Mr Bean, Niezam, lols. Headed Kampung Melayu as there was a dikir performance by hmm, Cucu Datok Merah, I think. Okayy, yesterderday english paper sucks alot. I was sleeping all the way, I was really tired and not having much sleep. Because I was thinking about something that makes me felt really guilty.
Oh yes, Mr Fahmy topup for me &gave such a cute bear. Thank you so much. Loitering at th RC since I was waiting for a friend.
Message from Fahmy;
"People may wondering why loves always occurs. All they know is that when two hearts burst into one, thats call 'love'. But as for me, I won't love. And in order to want it, I have to find it. I found one but will she accept me? She respond and told me that she's not impresses. One heart had melt. And had akey to open the door in her heart. But will the door open? But if the door open, I need the key to open up her mind. Will she love me? Or will she thinks I'm like the rest of the jerks out there she knew? Will she give me the chance? That question always wondering in my mind. Am I lacking of something to be her deary romeo or I'm just not her type? So all of this words I tries to tell you, will you understand I just wanna know you more? You make me think that I just knew you. But my heart seriously wants to create a new relationship between you and me. I know that you don't eat all this sweet little words. But I will try to unlock your mind. I have my own definition for life. I want to be happy and does not want anybody to hurt. Let me have the chance to know you better. :)"
Only Syafawanie knows who I'm still in lovee with. But I just can't accept the fact that I'm still in lovee with a fucktard.
I'm nothing but a loser. Even I have to do such a harsh thing to a bestfriend who I really loved so much.
to Dearest Wanie, I didn't mean to do that, it's just that I just don't have the courage to say it out to you.I'm terribly sorry.
p/s I just wanna break down and cry, and nothing worths more other than you, Nurul Syafawani. I just love you and don't wanna hurt you no more. 
BTW, HAPPY ANNIS TO WARDA &also LEENA!
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