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Wednesday, August 29, 2007 8/29/2007 06:47:00 am
mistaken love, had i know how to save a life.
I don't have the mood to go to school for today cause he ruins my fucking day with a fucking stupid message that he had send me. It's a really stupid message. A really dumb one. But if you're in my shoes, you should know how I felt. Waking up early in the morning after a tired day out &waking up with a dumb message and let your tears roll down you cheeks.
::To be really honest that fucking guy is the dearestFaizal.
The Faizal who love &cares for me.
..who is always there for me when I'm in need.
..who always wakes me early in the morning just to have a go out together.
..who always makes my day.
..who always keen enough to spend the day with me.
..who always calls me up every single morning waking me up for school.
there's loads of it.
It was such a heartbreak seeing him changing in just a single night after he met that fucking bitch at the restaurant. For god sake, he's someone's &flirting with someone. I told ya that he was attached, &yeah he sure do loves this biatch around him so damn much. Just damn much. Couldn't resisist the temptation of having many girls. Do you just like understand whats the meaning of love? You're such a big fat liar &an asshole! You can't just like telling me lies every single time right, you mother*toot*? Why can't you just like be honest, the old you, just the old you who is really honest? You're really disgusting. I really felt like an idiot(really like a fucking idiot!) loving him wholeheartedly &cared for him. I don't ask much from him. I'm just searching, wanting back the old him, that's all.
I don't eager for any boyfriend or what is just that I'm missing the old bestfriend that I have. =(
People often says this, "what goes around, comes around." But I don't believe it.
To me, "what goes around, comes around, but it does not comes around unless someone's ruins it." thats mine.
It's okayy, if that someone doesn't know what that means or do not believe it. But it's my point of view, so heckcare.
I have mistaken love for the second time, to be honest.
 Anyway yesterday was quite a wonderful night out with Fadhli to East Coast. He's such a sweet guy. Maybe one day he could be someone who I really loved. =D lol.
We had dinner at East Coast Lagoon, hahax I had kway teow goreng =DD &yeah the night was wonderfull. But something stupid is just lingering on my mind. I got work this evening &I don't like seeing his face &those bitches.*roll eyes*
Till here.
"Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend. Somewhere along in the bitterness. And I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known how to save a life."
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